Thanksgiving Feast.

So, I just wanted to write a really quick something or another about my wonderful day. I love my family. I am so happy that I am here with them right now...I wouldn't want to be anywhere right now then here in Hawaii with MY FAMILY. I love my family. We all helped my sister with all her baking...and wow...it was amazing...I just found out that my sister wants to do Black Friday shopping tomorrow...but not the crazy 4:am! We'll leave the house at 7:30am...so I might as well start on my Christmas shopping...but I just want to stop and say...I am so thankful for my family. I am so lucky to be here with my family...after so many years I feel like I have come home.

Happy Thanksgiving!

Today is the day! I guess I couldn't sleep in...even though I could. Because I just love this holiday! I can hear my sister up already cooking still already! I love my sister....This year we decided that we're just going to stay in the house and have our own sit down Lunner [Lunch-Dinner] with us four. I was helping with my sister yesterday...and oh mandope...so much food! Well, I'm going to go out there to help my sister with whatever she needs help with! But I just wanted to say HAPPY THANKSGIVING!!

Much Better.

These last two days were much better. Mondays, I tell ya! *laughs* But wow, I don't think that I have been as mad at someone in a long time until last Monday rolled around. But I don't know what happened but I'm glad that it's the holidays now and I don't have to see her take out her anger on the children. It was a lot better today.

In that teacher's defense...she is a good person. I just know it. She does have a sense of humor...and she is a really sweet person...but she sure does wear her feelings on her shoulder! And it really does seem like she doesn't care that people get hurt when she is in bad mood. I have learned that when I am upset, I need to walk away...and just talk myself out of the bad emotions I am feeling. She doesn't...but I know that everyone is different...

But I am so glad for this Thanksgiving break. I get tomorrow off [Thanksgiving Day] and Friday [Black Friday!]...I will have to admit I really need this holiday to step away from all the work drama...goodness...I hate drama too in my life! *laughs*

But I got to talk to my parents today. They are in Palawan. My friend Ate She took a picture of my mom and I couldn't stop looking at it, because I hadn't seen her for over a year...much less a picture of her...and she does look happy...but different. I have yet to "see" my dad again. I miss them so much. Oh goodness, I miss them so much. I wish so bad that they are here...but I know that they are doing what they want to do, and who am I to take that away from them. But I do miss them. It's hard not having any way to contact them when I need them.

My Mom

Well, my sister is starting our Thanksgiving feast for tomorrow and so I'm going to see if she needs any help! Oh goodness...I wish I can save this smell for all of time...it smells SOOO good! *laughs*

Bad Day.

Oh okay...so, I know that everyone has their bad days...but come on now...I know for the most part I will go to work in a good mood. I swear that is my default mood...if there is such a thing...to be in a good mood. I always try to be optimistic...I try so hard to tell myself that no one can determine you attitude in life but yourself...but sometimes people just get to me.

I have come to the realization that there are people in the world that if they are in a bad mood...but I'm sorry but then the whole world will take the wrath of it! My only way to get back at them is to stay in a good mood and show with my actions that they can't phase me...but that isn't true! It irritates me! If you are having a bad day and are just treating everyone like crap...then boohoo to you bitch! Go cry me a river! Ugh...people!

Oh okay, I know that I'm complaining and all...but anything that happen to kids affects me. No matter how much I try to NOT let it get to me...it does. It really does. You want to get me mad quick like that...tell me that kids are stupid...or talk about child molesters...oh mandope...nothing gets me more mad then that! And if I am in a bad mood at work...I can't, even if I wanted to take it out on the children! I just couldn't! They will always be in a good mood...and to watch someone yell and belittle a child because they are in a bad mood just makes me want to slam that person's head in the wall!

I love the innocents of a child. I have children where I know the background of their lives...and it just pinches my heart to painfulness...but that child will still smile at you...will still run to you with a hug...they don't know the horribleness of the world...yet. They can not comprehend the evilness of this world...yet. Even though at a young age things might be against them...they still smile and they still seek friendship with others...it is adults in our childless ways who teaches them what it means to be in a bad mood.

Oh okay...yes, I had a bad day. But I smiled through it all for the children's sake...but I hope...I pray that tomorrow will be much better. Whatever is plaguing that teacher...I hope she will be able to set it aside for just a moment for just a few more days...then she can have yet another vacation of the thanksgiving holidays and recoup.

PreThanksgiving Feast.

So today is our Thanksgiving Feast with Waimanalo SDA Church. I have to admit...this is the first church in a long time that I actually felt like I belong. I know that I grew up in Vallejo Central SDA Church..and that will always be my childhood church...but ever since I came back from the Philippines...I always felt more like a guest then family there. Oh well...time waits for no one...and I guess in my time away from there...things changed...and I'm different...the church is different...so things feel different now...

But Waimanalo SDA chuch...I feel like family. Even though I rarely go to church anymore...no matter how long I have been gone...when I go back to church there...I feel like family...And I love that feeling...but I still have a hard time attending church because of "that"...so at least I know I have a family church again.

But it's our Thanksgiving feast...and I'm actually kind of excited to be seeing everyone again! My sister was asked to decorate the place since Shilhi isn't going to be able to this year...and so I'm helping her with that. I know that the food is going to be amazing and the company is even going to be more amazing. My friend's Allie, Amanda, and Karlie will be there...so that's good. We're all teachers...and so it's fun talking story with them...but not only about school...but just because they are fun to hang out with.

Tracy and Kaleo and Ciccio are going to be there too. I miss them...but we'll see how things go! I love this Holiday feeling in the air! *laughs*

BUT NO CHRISTMAS SONGS YET!! NOT UNTIL AFTER AFTER THANKSGIVING! *laughs*

Me, the teacher.

So, the head teacher of my classroom has been out A LOT. And when I say "out A LOT"...that means like there was a time where she was gone for like a week and a half like 2 weeks ago...and now she is gone again for 4 days this week...might as well take the whole week off...but yeah I had to teach today.

I've always believed that I could be a teacher. I'm not trying to be vain or anything...but I think it's time for me to step it up. I now think that should be the teacher instead of the aid-where I have very limited control what I do. I know that there has been a lot of drama going on in the school with this other aid who is taking her CDA and she thinks and believes and moves and everything that she knows EVERYTHING...and it gets me upset. I think I can be a teacher. 

I think that I will go for the CDA so that I can be a teacher now. Eventually I'll go back to school to get my degree. I'm still kind of torn though, because Shil told me that she might be able to hire me full time and have control over the Plush line of Passion Roots...it would be dream come true to do that...but we'll come that crossroad in time. So yes, I will work on my CDA...hope it would take so long! *laughs*

The biggest mistake is to think that it's too late to start something... and not doing anything at all. 

Cockroach Blanket.

So today my family decided to watch TV together. I love it when we do that...I think that family should do that...have dinner and watch TV together...watching shows that we all like...in this case we watched The New Girl [I absolutely LOVE this show!] and Modern Family...hm, I guess it was "Comedy" family night. *laughs*

Anyways...K.Neal had hurt his leg while running last Sunday, and so he bought a styrofoam rolly thingy...well, my sister bought it from her PT...and so it was a lot cheaper...anyways...we cooked pizza...and oh man! Since our oven is broken, it took FOREVER to cook it...I think more than a hour...and so we were famished by the time it was finished cooking! Anyways...

K.Neal had gotten a blanket from the hallway closet so that he can lay on the floor while he massages his leg out with the styrofoam...my first thought about the blanket was...aww...it brought back memories! It was a blanket that has always been in my life since I was young...I remember it on my parents bed...I remember using it for picnics...I remember wrapping it around me when it got cold during the brutal winter months in Cali...and then I thought...oh wow! This blanket has been in the closet for so long it should be washed cause it smells! And so K.Neal lays it on the floor and then BOOM!!!! Cockroach explosion! My sister is covering her mouth trying not to scream out loud...my brother freaks out and runs to his room...K.Neal grabs and slipper and starts trying to slap/kill as many as he can...and what do it do?! Do I join my sister in the kitchen and try not to scream loud...do I freak out and run to my room...or grab a slipper and let out some bottled up negativeness and slap the shit out of the cockroachs...

...well, I'll let you guess. [But let me say that I've lived in the Philippines for six years...and seen way bigger cockroaches that those ones running around in our living.]

...AND if it were spiders running around in the living room...it would be all over. I would be all over. *laughs*

oh yeah...did you know they fly?! :)