Saturday, March 24, 2007

My last few hours...

...that i'm actually here in dahilig...the place where i'm staying at...it's acutually the road name that i'm staying at....Dahilig 119...same as the numbers on Brian's liscence number...juss thought to say that. :) I'm saying that this is the last time that i'm gonna sleep here kasi i'm leaving tommarow for Manila Airport at 6:am...so early, so i should be sleeping since i'ts already 12:40am! Jejeje...i guess i'm too excited to go to sleep. I did try to go to sleep...but i juss couldn't sleep I already said bye to Miles...my baby that i'll be leaveing here...i hope that he can get used to the new house that we're gonna be moved in by he time that i get here. I also went to Paseo to go eat at Blue Corner...to eat there one last time this school year...that's okay, i'll be back next year to go eat the best place to eat in my opinion...that's if you're not a vegetarian...because the sizziling chicken is the yummiest! yep! yep! yep! :) and so yeah, i juss finished last minute packing, and i'm SO superness excitedness to finally be going home!

Right now as i am typing this out, i'm scaning Eddie's extra hard drive for viruses...it had 244 that was detected and cleaned or deleted, and i'm juss scanning again juss in case...my goodness it takes so long...my gosh...more viruses are being discovered on this hard drive STILL...wow...Eddie needs to be more careful. Oh well...at least my wonderful Virus killer thingamabobber thingy on my laptop are killing them. My goodneses, why do people have to create viruses in the first place? It's so not good....not good at all! Well, it's almost gonna be finish...well, i don't even know...i juss guessing...but i hope that it does get cleaned soon because there are things that i wanna get offa it. and so yeah.

And so i took my last final exam on Thursday...well, TECHNICALLY i didn't even take it...because i was excempted because i had a good grade in it. But i did have a exam in it...it was for my class Health Economics...and to 100% honest...i don't think i learned anything from it...but who knows? Maybe i did...and i won't know until the future when i'm stuck with some Health Economic question and then i reach far back in to my memory and remember what that teacher taught me...all i know is that he HATES Americans...you all should hear what this guys says about living in the States...he don't know anything...there's one thing from living in the States and there's another if your juss on a vacation...i'm so swear...

Take care example when i first visited the Philippines, i loved it a lot. I had a lot of fun...oh yeah, please don't confuse my first time here....i came here for the first time for a vacation in 1997...so long time ago, i know! and i loved it...then when i came back to go to school in 2004...it was a totally nightmare...and actually this year for this school year, i can honestly say, there were the bad times and there were the good times and it was fun. I had a lot of fun. I made a lot of new friends a lot of new memories...but i have to admit, i kills me knowing tha i'm missing so much at home. so. much. and i hate that thought.

But i have to go now since Eddie's hard drive is now virus free i can open it and get what i want without infecting my laptop...dang that baby had a lot of viruses...and so yeah...but the next time you hear from me, i'll be home sweet home...i so can't wait! :) jejeje....see you all at home...as for now...laterz...



hugs...


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Thursday, March 22, 2007

This really pisses me off!

Okay...so i thought that everything was all settled and everything...but then it's not...already four people said that they can bring me and ALL changed their mind, and the last person who said that can bring me to the frikkin airport juss frikken bailed out on me! gosh...this hella pisses me off...it's hard enough finding someone who can drive me...and it's even harder when they leave me hanging like that...damn, i wanna hit something, cut something, scream at someone...juss something to take my frustrations out.


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Tuesday, March 20, 2007

My gosh...is this real?!


Hey you all, i started packing my stuff...and let me tell you that it's such a headache!!! i mean i have all MY stuff packed...but my cousins and other people want to send things home, and so that really pisses me off. I didn't want to bring a lot of things, and now i have to bring a LOT of things. My stuff all fits perfectly, and so now i have to leave some stuff behind juss so that i can fit everyone stuff...my gosh...i don't like that at all. Oh well...life goes on, and i'm going home soon! :) so yay for me!

The room was a chaotic mess and everything, but then everything is packed up. Our guardians told us, as in me and my roomies that we needed to move out by the end of the summer, which is May- the beginning of june...and since i'm not gonna be here...i had to pack ALL my stuff...so i have these three piles...one pile for what i'm gonna bring home, one for what is gonna move to the new place and one for donations. well, they aren't really piles...they are more like packed boxes and stuff. but i still have to pack my bed and all my pillows and stuff animals and the such.

You know one thing that i really hate? that is when we have a friggin FINAL and the teacher reviews with you what is going to be on the final, and then you get to the class to do your final...the teacher hands you your final test, and you sit down and you look at the test and you think "WTF?! is that?!" NOTHING that the teacher told you that was one the test was on the test and everything that he told you that WAS on the test was NOT on the test...and so here i was struggling trying to figure out the answers to questions that i vaguely remember talking about it in highschool. HIGHSCHOOL...thank God for highschool or else i would have totally failed the test. I really hate that though. because i studied for my anatomy and physio test...and he said that only the endocrine system, cardiac system, reproductive system, and about family planning will be on there...but then there wasn't. So i stayed up studying for 3 nights for no reason...on well, i know that i passed the class so that's all that matters...but still it sorta ticks me off...oh well. I'm going home soon anyways...

So, before i leave i heard that i needed and exit clearance...so i go to manila with jyn and eddie to go and get my exit clearance at the Immigration place...such far to get it...and guess what, i couldn't even complete it! The lines at the place...wait, not lines juss a chaotic mess and you have to juss push your way up to the front, and it took like 5 hours and we still didn't finish! So i have to go back there agian, maybe tommarow. But i need it before i leave...so i need to get it done. But it was fun when i went with Jyn and Eddie, because, when we went there, it was SUPER hot...and so i was wearing a spghetti top and a short skirt...and then we were dying of the hotness...and we step out of the building and it's raining like buckets outside...and we got soaking wet...so we started to dance in the rain, sorta....and people were staring at us...it was pretty randomly funny...and fun. but yeah. then we went to the mall and got something for my *ahem* yeah...:) secret! :)

I'm hungry...but the ulam isn't something i wanna eat...so i think that i'm gonna eat my fish thingy thing thing....it's good, from thailand...but i wish that the house helpers would cook something that we would actually eat. yesterday they cooked this thing that actually looked like pig intestine...or something like that...yeah, i didn't eat that either, so i'm hungry now. So i will go figure out what to eat.

Well, i think i'll end this now...ta ta for now! :)

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Sunday, March 18, 2007

Sad.

I don't know what is happening...but i'm juss realizing how much i missed out in life. I'm juss realizing how much i'm missing out in life right now. I'm missing out on everything...because i'm juss so missing out. And there's nothing that i can do. And i'm so sad. This fucking sucks. Right now, i juss feel like disappearing for a very long time, that way i have a good reason why i'm missing out in the stuff that's happening with my friends, my family, with what i use to have and share. And when i mean disappear, that means...not here in the Philppines...but somewhere else...where NO ONE knows...NO ONE cares...and were time juss passes.


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Monday, March 12, 2007

Perverted Peeping Person!


One thing that I had to get used to living here in the Philippines is how we don't have any blinds on the windows…we have "curtains" here and that is in quotations because they aren't really curtains really, juss wannabe curtains, I guess you can call them that…but yeah. Anyways…yeah…I hate that since I really hate dark windows and mirrors at night. The way my bed is positioned I had to chose where to put my head facing an open window or the mirror in the room…I chose to "face" the mirror…but then when I lay down, I can't even seen the mirror, so I figured that I am okay…I juss don't look in that direction at night. Well anyways…so my roomie Joy left at 5:30am to go to some art chalk contest a few towns over with her fine arts group, and Jyn had gone to do something about her Psychology thingamabobber…so I was left in the room, but then I was gonna leave at 10:30am to go out with my friend…so I get up at 9:am…since I couldn't sleep anymore…and I got up…and I went outside to feed Miles (my kitty) and then I went into the room, and I washed up, and stuff…then I decided to put my bra on…so here I am taking me shirt off …I was facing the wall…but then I happen to look over to the window, and there was a frigging guy looking in the friggin window! And I was like WTF!?!? And I literally grabbed my shirt that I had taken off and moved to the other side of the room…and I look back and that perve was still there looking…and I gave him a dirty look then he goes and tries to hide, but I could see him looking through the other window…and so by that time I had my shirt back on, and I called in the house helper and I brought her in the room and I asked who that guy was…and she said that she didn't know…but she had gone outside to check up on the cats…and that guy was friggin peeing in my uncles plants IN FRONT OF THE WINDOW!!! Good things I wasn't looking out the window them…she said that he saw her when she went outside, and she juss smiled…what a freakin pervert! So now I'm sooo paranoid that some "peeping" perv is outside looking in…and we can't do anything about it because we don't have frigging window blinds…and I mean it's our room…we can change wherever we want in the room, so now us girls are so paranoid…friggin' guy! Now we are thinking of getting better curtains…because we don't know if that guy will be out there watching us sleep…they don't really have safe windows here…and it's not like we have a dog like Baili Dru outside our room to "guard" us, or even to warn if there is someone out there…my roomie even commented how it would be nerve wrecking if we went online and found pictures posted of us…and they are the pictures that we do NOT want posted up of us…so you tell me, are we being paranoid, or what?! But that guy…my gosh! Well…now me and my roomies are so extremely careful when we change. And we are looking for window blinds…sucks that window blinds are a luxury here and so they are more on the expensive side…so maybe we'll juss have to make better curtains…gosh…there goes my "innocent" room…:)

So I was extremely bored today…but my friend Brian and Marlon came over and we were juss sitting in Bri's car…well first we were standing outside, and them here comes my other friend Jo, she had gone to Manila and I didn't go with her, because I was suppose to go get pet fish today but (sadly) I didn't so sad…but then that's okay…but she comes walking up with this big ass smile on her face and she hands me a box of Krispy Kreme Donuts…okay, so I'm not the biggest fan of donuts…I'm more of a cookie and brownie girl…but then I like the glazed Krispy Kreme donuts…so that was pretty cool. There is only ONE Krispy Kreme in the whole ..:namespace prefix = st1 ns = "urn:schemas-microsoft-com:office:smarttags" />Philippines, and it's juss opened like a couple months ago…it reminded me of home…I know that a lot of my friends at home like Krispy Kreme donuts and I'm okay with them…but get me a Mrs. Field's cookie or brownie…and that is SO yummy! :) But that was so cool of Jo to do for me. She is an awesome girl…so fun, weird and random…

Oh…I found someone who "lies" more than me! My gosh…I remember the days in PUC when Michelle would introduce me as "This is my roomie Charity, she is a chronic liar…" oh those were the days….but then…I don't like I joke around…right…well MARLON LIES! He lies…I'm so swear…okay, he jokes around…you can NEVER believe him…like he goes all like, "I won't lie to you anymore…" And then the next sentence is a lie…my gosh…and I thought I joked/lied a lot…okay, I only joke around, not lie. :)

Miles…gosh…I love that kitty so much…he is like my little baby.  I wanna give him another bath…but I know that I shouldn't…it traumatizes that poor cute kitty. But I love carrying him into the room when I know that he is sleepy…and he cuddles with me…like, I will bring him in the room while I'm getting ready, and he will sleep on my bed, and then when I lay down on my bed he crawls up to me and he cuddles next to me. He is soooo adorable. He is so playful. It's so funny, because I have to feed him inside the house because I feed him special "human" tuna food…that's how I spoil my lil baby, and so he waits at the door and when you watch him it's so funny, he has a little gimp when he walks, since when I found him, I think he was abandoned, and so you can feel it his tail when it broke and I think he broke his leg, and it healed wrong, and so he walks with a slight limp…but it's a lot better then when I first found him…well he waits at the door and when you open the door, he runs in so fast, you sometimes miss him. That cute little one. :)

Well, it's getting closer and closer to when I'm coming home, and I feel like I can't take the wait anymore. I'm trying to stay focused on my school, but it's so hard when I know that I don't even have a month left here in this country! It's so hard when I know that in about two weeks I will be home…my goodness…I so feel it already. I am dreaming of home, and I am wanting home, and I am sooo excited that I feel like I'm gonna burst. I know that you won't know how I feel until you all try going away from home for a school year…and then you know that even when you do go home, you have to return back to wherever far away from home for who knows now long…but I so can't wait. My gosh…everyday will count, I know…and I will make memories…and dang…I so can't wait…!!!!

Well, I better go now…I miss you all so much…and I can't wait to see you all again!

Hugz…!

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Saturday, March 10, 2007

Maybe I should go to sleep now...


...but i really don't want too! It's exactly 1:am in the morning...but i don't feel like sleeping right now, even though i had a pretty "exciting" day here in AUP. Oh...i juss changed to 1:01am...:) I have to be up pretty early tommarow...okay, maybe 10:am isn't that early to some of you...but that sounds good to me...especially when i have to wake up SUPER early each and every morning of the week...not the weekend...but the week. Jejeje...all of us actually is awake in the room right now. Joy is doing something on her laptop...something for school, Jyn is writing in her Starbucks planner...and me is on my laptop writting letters to my e-mail "key"pals and writing this blog...i keep switching back and forth to my letter writing and writing this blog. And i'm listening to music...i think this is a song that my sister gave me...aww...i really miss my sister a lot.

Well, according to the calendar that i got from my best friend i have two more weeks until i come home. And I am so excited...my brother said that i have a Jamba Juice gift card waiting for me to use...how fun is that!? yes, i love fruit smoothies...and i LOVE Jamba Juice...juss in-case you didn't know that already. Oh and...i love the energy boost with my drink...i know what you're thinking...ME need more energy?! jejeje...i like the taste. :)

Today was Saturday...or well i should say that "yesterday" was saturday...and i didn't go to church again. Because how i see it is...what is worst? going to church knowing that i will get NOTHING from it, but the judgement from those who think that are "perfect" or not going at all, knowing that i'm being true, and not fake. It's not like i did anything bad though.

At around uhm...lets say 2ishy...my friend Jo asks me what i'm doing because she is "proper" bored...and i say that i'm bored too so we go to the playground and we swing...oh wow...we swing...i know that Jo doesn't really like to swing that high, or if anyone swings that high...she gets scared that we're gonna flip or something...but it's so fun. I remember all those days at NAJA when we use to have the old playground and the swings...i LOVE swings because of all those fun memories...and so i swing high...then my other friends joined us, and we played catch with a football and then we were bumping the volleyball around. Then we went on the see-saw...and we all balenced ourselves so that we didn't have to touch the ground...all of us...and we juss sad there suspended between the ground the "not" ground. :) i wouldn't say the sky...because we were a lil low for that...but you get my point right. We were there for a while until i said that i was hot and that i wanted Halo-Halo...so then that was when we ordered Halo-Halo and gulaman from Chow King...my 2nd place to eat here in the Philippines...well i think it's now bumped down to 3rd...but yeah..Sabarro is the 1st...then terriyaki boy is up there too. :)

Talking about Terriyaki Boy...that place is SO good...and that is mine and my friend's Redeem's place. We have this "our" day where we would juss hang out with us two and juss do whatever and go whereever we feel like. It's good that she is a native so that we don't really get lost, so that's good. But i love it. She is pretty shy, so i have those "deemo days" because she is so special to me since i survived my first year that i was here...and she is the type of person that doesn't really talk a lot when other's are around...so i have our day, so that it will but juss us...and we found this perfect resturant...Terriyaki Boy...and the view is SO pretty...maybe i might post up some pictures some day. Yeah...our last "day" was last friday...yesterday...err...two days ago. :)

Tommarow...or today at 10:am, me and my roomies are suppose to go to SM Sta. Rosa...which is a small mall like 45 minutes away...and guess what?! i'm gonna go buy pet fish. It's weird that i'm finally realizing that i'll be here for a few more years, and so i have to survive this place...so i need my own "family" to call my own here. My kitty Miles has grown up so much...but he's still that cute little ball of fur that i have learned to love so much...he is SO spoiled though...he eats Tuna. He doesn't like anything else...so i have to buy him tuna all the time...and he loves to cuddle...so i'm always taking him to the room...and he cuddles with me when i sleep. And now i'm gonna get me some fish...and i think i want an Eel and one of those algae eater things...i really REALLY want a dog...but i don't think my guardians really appreciate that that much...and so yeah.

I am sooo excited to be going home soon. I can't wait to take a warm shower. I can't wait to sleep in my own bed, be in my own room, have my "own" bathroom(ishy) do whatever i want...i am soo excited...i can't wait to eat my blueberries with applesauce, REAL ice-cream, go to clairs and icing and spencers...and hang out with my friends again. And i really can't wait to see my brother and sister again...oh gosh, i have missed them SO much...I feel so lucky that i'm so close with them the way that i am...even though we are far apart...i know that they are ALWAYS there for me when i need them...

There was this one day that i was having a SHITTY day (excuse the language Ebola...but it was!!) and i really wanted to talk to my sister, but my internet was connected with hell and wouldn't work right...and i was so frustrated taht i saw her online, but i coudln't talk to her, and i was sooo homesick that i broke, and i juss texted her to forget...i don't wanna talk to her...but she called me and totally made my day. I miss her SO much, and even though i don't get to see her until her birthday, i know that it's going to be a comfort being in the same COUNTRY...same STATE as her...:)

Well, i think that i'll be going now...miss you all so much...can't wait to see you all again!

hugs...

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