Wednesday, August 31, 2011

End of August.

Wow, this month went fast...although it seriously didn't seem like it! *laughs* But it really did go's funny how time goes like that. But yeah....

There were a lot of birthdays. A lot of good friend birthdays...and I didn't really realize just how many birthday there were this month until each day came and went...I hope all my friends had good birthdays. I miss them.

As for work...oh wow, this month was a struggle. I hope that next month is better. I mean, it wasn't too bad...but I felt like the days were going SOOO slow! Like there was NOTHING to look forward too at my work...super slow. I started going out for lunch with one of my co-workers...and I like those times. She is the new teacher and she is really nice...and I feel comfortable around her. She is not only a new teacher, but a new bride and just newly moved here! Wow..."new" a lot of things!

I've been swimming more too. So that is good. I have been going to the gym swimming at 6 in the morning. Yes, it's hard to wake let me take that back, it's NOT hard to wake's hard to GET UP...and yes there is a difference...but I have been noticing a difference with how I'm swimming...I think that I'm getting better...I think my strokes are better at least...I still need to work on swimming straight! I try...but it's just so hard! *laughs* Even with the lines on the bottom of the pool! :)

Well, it was a pretty fast month, but it wasn't it was yes...thank you Lord for giving me the experiences that I had this month...I hope the memories stay with me...

Monday, August 29, 2011

Happy Birthday Joynessless!

When I was in the Philippines I had these two awesome room/housemates. They were sisters and we had a lot of fun times together. Today is the younger sister's birthday. 

Happy birthday Joynessless!!

I miss this girl lots. We became super close and I hate this distance that separates us. I can't wait to see her again...But I really do hope that she has a great birthday....she deserves it. 

Sunday, August 28, 2011


My throat hurt this morning, and I was feeling so lethargic when I woke up for my morning swim so I didn't go swimming in the ocean today. I miss it though... definitely next week I am questions asked. One thing I like about swimming is that when you don't feel like swimming or if you get tired, you can just flip over on your back and literally lay down on the water. If I don't watch myself I could just fall asleep and drift away! *laughs* Naw, I don't think that that can happen because water does splash on your face...and I don't want to choke or something...but I still have to be careful about drifting away and stuff...

Anyways, I still woke up super early though and so I didn't have anything really to do but my laundry, so I did my laundry. Oh yeah, and we have been looking for a new place to live and so far we looked at 2 places...well, at least I've looked at two different place and my sister and her husband has seen a place in Hawaii Kai that they liked. We have agreed that we want to live together for a little's cheaper that way...I don't think that I'll be able to survive on my own financially yet...soon one day. I'm looking for another preschool job that pays more...we'll see what I come up with. I love all "my" little kiddies we'll see.

We all have agreed that we want to live in a house. No more of this duplex living...NO apartments we're looking at renting a house. Good luck for us on that. It sucks...we're sick of our neighbors who are so inconsiderate...and enough on that.

Anyways, I just woke up and guess what I found right next me?! New goggles. Since I go swimming a lot...I go through goggles a lot...well, not a lot...but enough. Anyways, one time when I went to the beach with the boys they used my goggles and we play a lot of games...and one of them is we swim far out...and try to dive to the bottom of like 15-20 feet...and try to get the biggest rock or something on the bottom. I can't do it. I float like a cork. Literally. Seriously. It sucks...sometimes, they take turns trying to touch the bottom. *laughs* I mean I can do it...but it's extra hard coz I float really easily. [On the other hand, my brother sicks. Literally, had has a hard time floating...coz even if he relaxes on the water...he sinks like at least 1 foot under the water. *laughs*]

Anyways, the guys were using my goggles...coz I always bring my goggles no matter what, and I was the only one with the goggles...and a few weeks ago they broke I've been using Neal's when I go swimming in the morning...but it's difficult because it's made for men...and I think they fog up too much...I hate it.

So when I woke up...there in front of me where brand new PINK girl goggles...and yes, I tried them on already and they fit perfectly. :)

They look like this...

Saturday, August 27, 2011

Manana Beach and The Blind Side.

I love the beach. I so love the beach. Today we were suppose to go hiking to Muanawili Falls...and I was all ready. I had my hiking clothes over my bikini...and my shoes with my flippity flops in my backpack. So when my brothers got home from church, they would just change and then we would just leave.

My brothers came home, changed into their swimming trunks, took a look at me and asked, why do you have shoes on?! What!? Why do I have shoes on?! Yes, I know that there is a waterfall and swimming hole at the END of the hike, but I was not about to hike in slippas!

That's when they told me, the hiking was postponed and we were just going to Manana Beach. Was I going to complain?! No, I love the beach and I'm down to go to the beach at any time of any day...if I wasn't working. Sometimes I wish I can go even IF I was working! *laughs*

So it was me and my brothers, Tracy and Kaleo and Uilani. Aunty Bonnie and Uncle came afterwards...but we had fun..we swam out and just floated far out in the ocean. We played our usual fun games and we just enjoyed the water. It wasn't as clear as I liked it...and it tasted even that even a word?! Oh well, but it was fun. Kaleo said that the microscopic algae was making it look more green...but warmer. It was a lot warmer in the water than out of the water!
Picture taken by Neal of Manana Beach in Waimanalo
Then when we got home...I took a shower and rested...and while my sister and Neal went to meet with Mel to talk about her wedding plans, I watched The Blind Side. I love the movie! I really do. It broke my heart in the beginning and even in the end when they would talk about all the others that didn't make it...but I really liked the movie. And to think that it's based on a true story...I liked it a lot and yes, I would watch it again.

Haven Faye.

Congratulations to my cousins Brad and Abigail and big sister Savi on the new addition to the family...!!! 

I can't wait to meet the little one...Haven Faye.

Once again I am an aunty in less than two weeks...I love my ever growing family. :)

Picture taken from Mama Abigail's FB account.
"Sister Time"

Happy Birthday Marcus!

Happy birthday Marcus!! 

Today, it's my "little brother's" birthday. He may not be my blood brother...but I grew up with him...and I miss him. He's my bestie's little brother...and my brother's best friend. Last year for his birthday we went to Scandia and did minature golf and laser tag and the boys went to the hitting range...and it was so funny coz me and Mar was tipsy [No, we weren't the ones driving!] yeah, we were being silly...and I have got to say that it was one of the most funnest times that I had in my life. I miss him. I miss drinking with friends and just having fun.

Happy birthday, "little brother"....I miss you. *hugs*

My brother Jem, Marcus and Me at the airport seeing us off!

Thursday, August 25, 2011


I know that the new teacher is having a hard time...and sometimes we go out for lunch just to talk. She is the teacher for the 2-year olds.... She's a military wife...young and super nice.

This is her first job teacher, and I think that she does an amazing job. I think that it's harder for her...if you knew her whole situation, and it doesn't help that her aid doesn't really help her out. In fact, not many of the other staff help her out...I try to do my best...but I can only do so much. And being there for her when she vents is one way.

Today we went to's just right down the street from where we work, and we got ourselves Caramel Fraps and just drank and talk and drank and talk. She has only been on the island less than a few months and she actually applied to be an aid...ended up being the I can only imagine her overwhelmed feeling...I try to talk to her as much as I can. She is really nice, and I hope that she makes it.

It was good just being able to relax and talk to her as a friend, not as a co-worker or an acquaintance, but as a friend. I think with years, I get more picky who I call my friend...and I'm not as out-going anymore. I've learned that a lot of people just care for themselves and just walk all over other people to get what they want....and since I know myself better, I try to stay from people like that since I tend to be a person pleaser. I have a good feeling about her, I hope she makes is.

Happy Birthday Achalu!

Happy Birthday Achalu!!!
Only 9 more years until August 25, 2020! :) 

Wednesday, August 24, 2011

I miss them.

According to The Urban Dictionary "I miss you" has three meanings.

1) Missing Someone isn't about how long its been since you've seen them last or the amount of time since you last talked. 
It's about that very moment when you are doing something and you wish they were right there with you.
Baby, I miss you so much right now. Why are you not right here with me?
2) When you miss someone so much, you start searching it in Urban Dictionary.
I miss you! Damn it.
3) When you haven't seen someone you care about for some time and you want to see them again.
I haven't seen you for several months. I want to see you again. I miss you...

Oh okay...I know that The Urban Dictionary isn't exactly the most reliable source and is just for fun...but sometimes I like looking things up on that thing...juss because. 

I miss my mom. I miss my dad. I miss them. A lot.

I got to talk to them today...after work as soon as I stepped out of the gate to walk home, my mom calls me. I miss her. I know that I have a hard times living with her again...because she has different views in life than I do, but I miss having her around when I need her.

I miss my dad. Whenever I talk to my dad, I know I start to tear up and I start having the nostalgic feeling inside...growing up, my daddy was the one who I would confide in, and I miss him. 

They both have changed...but so have I; I know it. But sometimes I long for those times when it wasn't like this. They lecture me on my lifestyle now. And they both want me to get married. I'm not ready to get married yet! I don't even have a boyfriend, currently! For crying out loud...but I do miss them a lot.

It's still difficult for me to accept the fact that they are gone to me. I mean, they are still there, and they are still my parents...but they are also living for God now. They always have...but they have dedicated their life to Him and I really admire them. 

When we talk, I really have to hold back in the things that I think...I don't want to offend them...but I think that it goes both ways...they know that I get upset when they tell me how to live my life, so they have stopped and just ask me how I am doing. But I miss them. I miss the old times. I miss them. A. Lot.

Tuesday, August 23, 2011


[I copied this from I saw it and I really enjoyed and thought that I should share it on my blog...but I in NO WAY claim that I wrote this.  This is the link that I got it from. But when I read it, it really did get me I ever really enjoy life and what it has to offer...or do I just survive from day to day?! I would like to say that I do like to "stop and smell the roses."]


...something to think about...

Washington, DC Metro Station on a cold January morning in 2007. The man with a violin played six Bach pieces for about 45 minutes. During that time approx. 2 thousand people went through the station, most of them on their way to work. After 3 minutes a middle aged man noticed there was a musician playing. He slowed his pace and stopped for a few seconds and then hurried to meet his schedule.

4 minutes later:The violinist received his first dollar: a woman threw the money in the hat and, without stopping, continued to walk.

6 minutes:

A young man leaned against the wall to listen to him, then looked at his watch and started to walk again.

10 minutes:

A 3-year old boy stopped but his mother tugged him along hurriedly. The kid stopped to look at the violinist again, but the mother pushed hard and the child continued to walk, turning his head all the time. This action was repeated by several other children.. Every parent, without exception, forced their children to move on quickly..

45 minutes:

The musician played continuously. Only 6 people stopped and listened for a short while. About 20 gave money but continued to walk at their normal pace. The man collected a total of $32.

1 hour:

He finished playing and silence took over. No one noticed. No one applauded, nor was there any recognition. No one knew this, but the violinist was Joshua Bell, one of the greatest musicians in the world. He played one of the most intricate pieces ever written, with a violin worth $3.5 million dollars. Two days before Joshua Bell sold out a theater in Boston where the seats averaged $100. This is a true story. Joshua Bell playing incognito in the metro station was organized by the Washington Post as part of a social experiment about perception, taste and people's priorities.

The questions raised:

*In a common place environment at an inappropriate hour, do we perceive beauty? *Do we stop to appreciate it? *Do we recognize talent in an unexpected context?

One possible conclusion reached from this experiment could be this:

If we do not have a moment to stop and listen to one of the best musicians in the world, playing some of the finest music ever written, with one of the most beautiful instruments ever made.

How many other things are we missing?

Locked out.

When I get home after work at around brother is always home.

When I go home for my lunch break, I always just go back to work with my keys and cell phone...oh and chapstick is a given!

Today, I did something different. I just brought my cell phone with me. Thankfully, fully charged. And yes, my chapstick, which is always with me. Literally.

I thought, oh my brother is going to be home when I get I don't have to bring my keys. Wrong!

He decided to go swimming today at Ala Moana! I don't blame him. It was super hot today. And when I say super hot...I mean it was super hot. I was going to go to the beach myself and just jump in the water and just float there. It was hot...but when I was walking home, I noticed the 4Runner wasn't there...[we borrowed Shilhi's 4Runner since my brother's car is broken and she and her family are in Cali for the month.]...So I called my brother...where are you?! He just gotten out of the ocean and was headed to the showers to wash off. Town is like 45 minutes away...if there is no traffic.

So I juss brought out a lawn chair...brought it to our front yard...sat my ass down and called my cousin. It was a lot cooler by that I wasn't going to die from the heat...and it was so good to catch up with my cousin again. I've missed her a lot and she is probable [aside her 12 year old daughter] the only one that I keep up on a regular basis from California...kind of sad that is how it goes...but that's how it goes.

We talked the only way that I can talk to anyone...I trust her. I know that I can tell her things ...and she won't judge me or try to play therapist...she just listens. That's what I like about her. She doesn't judge. I love her a lot...coz she has gone through so much, and yet she is one of the strongest persons I know...[my mom is another strong person I know...super strong, these women! :)] We talked a long time..even when my brother came home...we were still even though I was locked out...I really didn't mind. I didn't get to jump in the ocean like I wanted too, but that's okay because I got to talk to my cousin for more than an hour...and yes, I've missed her a lot.

I got to hear Bebe talk! She talks...that little baby [who is not even one yet!] talks! I thought it was LayLay! *laughs* Rose lives her dad that's good. She goes to school there so she lives with her...I didn't know that...I miss them. So, being locked out wasn't as bad as I thought it would be..

6 Minutes.

Since my brother's car broke down, we have no way to go to the gym in the mornings now! Boo! :( Hopefully we'll be able to go...I miss my morning swims.

Now, since I am used to waking up at 5:15am...I am wide awake, but not only for the fact that this is the time that I'm usually awake...but because early this morning I was woken up by my phone. And I'm still smiling about it.

My phone rang and I look at the time 3:46am...who is calling me at this hour?! I look at the caller ID and it says "unknown"...who could it be?! I pick it up and groggily make out "hello". And I hear him say my name, "Charity", in the way only he can...and even though I haven't heard his voice in a couple month, I know who it is right away. Achalu. It's Achalu calling me. So since it was long distance, we talked fast and said so much in those few short 6 minutes. I miss him. I miss talking to him. I miss him so much.

He's back in Ethiopia now. He is practicing Medical Technologies...he just graduated last May and I am so proud of him. He told me that he had messaged me yesterday on Facebook; I saw it, but I wanted a long time so I can reply and so I didn't answer right away...and told me write him. I miss him.

I miss hanging out with him. I miss returning back to my apartment and knowing that he was right there next door waiting for me. I miss walking home and seeing him wait for me so that I didn't have to walk home alone. I miss sitting out in our balcony just to have a glass of wine, a cup of admire the moon. I miss his cooking...yes, he cooks amazing. I miss watching movies with him. Falling asleep on his bed. Doing my homework in him house [his place was a LOT cooler than mine!]. I miss working out with him in the mornings and evenings. I miss jogging with him. Riding the bike with him. Going to Paseo with him. I miss him.

We have a date to meet up. June 17, 2020 in Hawaii and August 25, 2020 in Fiji. Can't wait for that time to come. He was a good friend when I needed a friend. And he still is good friend even though I haven't seen him in more than a year now. It was so good to hear his voice again...and I'm glad that I can still call him my friend after all this time.

Nafkehegnal, my friend. Tetenkek always. *hugs*

Sunday, August 21, 2011

Beach Sabbath.

Yesterday we had beach Sabbath at Sherwoods. I had to call Tracy and Kaleo to see if they could pick my brother and I up because we only had the truck and there was NO way that I was going to ride in the bed on the way to the beach in my dress clothes. I do it all that time...which I do like coz I like the wind blowing in my face...but not while I'm all dolled up! :) Well, I take that back...not dolled up, but dressed up nicer. *laughs* We were having church at the I dressed up beach style but nice. :)

We ended up getting picked up at like 6:45am because we were going to help Tracy and her family set up at the beach. We helped last time. I like having church at the beach. I actually go to church if we do have church at the beach. I like the beach.

I ended up singing song service with Tracy and then guess what?! I SOOO want to get me a ukulele! I was learning how to play! With Uncle Joe's's really not that hard to play and I like it a lot better than the yes, I do believe that I will get myself a ukulele. Uncle Dougie said that I can get a beginners one like at Costco or Walmart or even Longs! For like about $60 or something dollars....I want to get one...I learned pretty fast and Uncle Dougie said that I have the ear to play it...I loved it!

I ended up sleeping over at Tracy and Kaleo's place. We just had a very relaxed chilled day. Their place is a lot breezier than where we live...and I love the foot massage thingy at their house! And then we had the bomb greek food! It was SOOO yummy! I made the falafals... well out of a box...but I fried them...and it was least together with the yummy yogurt sauce that Kaleo made it was yummy! Same with this Greek salad that Tracy made and then this different kind of rice. Yes it was yummy. We watched this anime Castle In the Sky while we ate.
We did wake up early to go to Queens for them to run. I did some jogging/walking with Ciccio...but I didn't want to go swimming because there was a full moon last week...and 8-12 days after the full moon, I don't like swimming in the ocean because that is when all the jellyfish come out. And I don't like swimming into jellyfish...they hurt!

Oh, weekend...I wish you weren't over...but you here goes to a new week. Please be good to me!

Friday, August 19, 2011


Ohana night was cancelled. Aunty and Uncle had to take Jenna to the airport because she is going back to California to go back to school. Nights like this make me realize how much I really do miss Ohana Nights at Aunty Michele's house.

Oh yeah, and my brother's car broke down while my sister was driving it and her husband had to go follow her so she wouldn't be alone.

What a horrible week. Hope next week is better.

I have to text Tracy now to see if she can pick my brother and  I up on the way to beach Sabbath at Serwoods Beach.

Glad this week is over. Bad week.

Wednesday, August 17, 2011

Still working.

It's early in the morning and I should just work and work and work until it's all done...but I need a break. And to vent. I am still working on these "First Day" picture books! Oh my goodness! I have a life too! Why can't the teacher do it?! It's suppose to be HER task to do this! I know that I'm nice...but do people HAVE to walk all over me and tell me what to do. I suppose it's partly my fault though because I could have just said "no"...but then my boss said that the teacher didn't like doings things like that leaves me stuck?! What if I never came to her class?! I wasn't suppose to anyways?! Or was this the plan all along?! I feel betrayed. It's things like this that make me NOT want to help out people anymore, because that just take me for granted...what is that?! That is also why I will never take anyone for granted because it's wrong and I'm just mad about it.

But so there. I can do it. And I did to it. It took me about a week to make the books for the other classrooms and two days to actually finish the whole book pictures and captions and all...but for these books, I am able to give them out tomorrow in-spite of not knowing that I was suppose to be doing them in the first place! UGH! Yes, I'm still upset about it all...but at least I got it done! Well, getting it done...a few more books and then I am done and I got finally go to sleep. I guess I won't be swimming tomorrow. Now back to work [oh yeah, and I'm not getting paid for this over time!]

Monday, August 15, 2011

Idelle Grace.

I am pretty upset about this whole school thingy, but I came home to such good new that I can't help but keep a smile on my face as I write this. 

I am an Aunty again. :) 

My cousins [Marvin and Ila] had their baby girl today. I have not yet met Isabelle...their first daughter...but now Idelle Grace has joined them...and I can't help but smile because my family is growing. 

Congratulations to Marvin and Ila on their new baby girl, Idelle Grace *hugs*

(Picture taken by my cousin, Marvin)
"Kiss from Big Sis"


I was told that I was going to work with Nicole again with the older 2-year-olds. I only started in the 2-year-old room because I had to train the teacher and the aid that was starting there [which makes no sense to me since I never had any training!]...but then I was told that I was going to help another teacher.

Before school started again, we all got together in the classrooms that we were going to teach in and prep for the school year. I helped out in the 2-year-old room because I was going to be there for awhile...and then I also helped Nicole with her stuff because I was going to be in there...I made these 1st day books for both classrooms. And I did a lot of other prepwork for these two classes.

Then my boss told me to go somewhere else. Which was cool with me, because I was okay with that. This we AFTER school started and we should have had everything prepped already...but then I find out TODAY...3 weeks AFTER school started that everything was NOT prepped in this classroom and my boss gets upset with ME that it's not! I mean, hello! I've only been in this room 2 days and I was told that it was going to be temporary and now I'm getting in trouble because the teacher didn't prep everything?!

I even told my boss that I helped prep for TWO classrooms because I was told that I was going to be in one and in the other one I was starting out why was I getting in trouble for something the teacher didn't do. Oh, I am upset. The teacher and my boss told me that I had to do the first day books. First day. Hello! It's already the third WEEK! Just to do those other books for the other took me at least a week or so to finish those books...and now I have to do this room too! Oh. My. Goodness. I am upset..because now when I go back to school after my lunch break I have to bring home stuff to make the books and do the books. I am super upset. Yep. SUPER upset about all this. 

Come on now, I don't mind getting in trouble for something that IS my fault...because, I deserve to get in trouble...but this is NOT my fault. Boo to them. I'm mad. > <

Sunday, August 14, 2011

“He told me I was doing a photo shoot of him and to send some pictures to his mother back home, and he wanted to be in his uniform and me looking nice in a dress. And then when I set the timer and ran over to stand beside him, he got down on one knee and asked me to be his wife.”

Oh. My. Goodness. That has got to be one of the cutest things EVER!! Whoever I end up with, I hope he has a good romantic streak! This makes me kilig just imagining it all! Makes me smile. :)

Balefire and The Guernsy Literary and the Potato Peel Pie Society.

I went swimming today at Ala Moana with my brother. The others are still training for the marathon, and so they ran and we swam. Not the cleanest water, but I do have to say that for swimming its my favorite place to swim. Afterwards we went to go eat at BC Burrito. That is one of our favorite places to eat after running/swimming. But while the guys were finishing their food, Tracy and I went to Boarders...which wasn't that far away and "accidentally" stayed there for more than an hour browsing the books. Boarders is closing down, which makes me super sad...because it's one of my favorite places! But yeah, all their books are on sale like some are 75% off!

I got the book Balefire by Cate Tiernan. I never heard of it...or the author...but I took a chance because it was the whole series in one book and it sounded nice. "Mystery, romance, and magick collide when long-lost twins are reunited." Sounds interesting yeah?! Well, we shall see.

Right now I am in the middle of reading the book The Guernsy Literary and the Potato Peel Pie Society by Marry Ann Shaffer and Annie Barrows. My friend Tracy wanted me to read the book and so I am. So I have to finish this book before I go on. So far...this book [far from the type of books that I do like] is very interesting and I actually like it a lot! It's written in letter at first I was so confused, but now, I like it a lot...[Here is a review of the book from another blogger!]

So, I shall get to reading! :) I do love good books!

Saturday, August 13, 2011

You Are Holy.

So, early this morning Josh came to the house so that we can practice the song that he was suppose to sing [As The Deer] for special. After we practiced that song, we just started fooling around with other songs and we started to sing You Are Holy...and guess what?! That's the song that we ended up singing! Tracy sang with us. It was so last minute, but I think that we did a good job. I sang and played the piano...I asked Tracy to sing with us because I wasn't sure that I knew the song enough to play it and sing it at the same time. Too bad when they recorded it, they forgot to put a microphone on the piano and so you could only hear us piano...and so yes, it sounded kind of funny...but yeah. It was good to sing with Josh for one last time...well, hopefully it won't be the last time. 

Friday, August 12, 2011

Goodbye Josh.

I hate goodbyes. I really do. Anyways, Josh just showed up one day at our house with his fiancee Melissa maybe a month ago. He's from the Big Island...his fiancee is from he moved here and has been trying to look for a job. He just passed his boards for Nursing...but he has been having a hard time looking for a job. He did get a job! So I'm happy for him! But it's at the Big Island, so now he is moving back. BOO!

I've enjoyed getting to know him and his lady friend. They are planning to get married in December. My sister told that she would co-ordinate their wedding and I have agreed to design and be their florist. In the short time that we have gotten to know them, they have become very close in our small friendship circle. I know that Mel works a lot so she hasn't been able to hang out with us as much...but she does come when she can. Josh comes to our house after church on Saturday's and I would play the piano and sing with him.

It's pretty cool though....I mean, he just went to the Big Island last Friday and came back Tuesday and got the job today. But he sings tomorrow...and he had asked me to play for him. He wants to sing As The Deer. One of my I'll be playing for him. Good luck to you will be missed. Mel, will be joining him, but later...but she is already applying for work there...boohoo! :( I'll miss you too Mel!

The boys...Kaleo, Jem, Neal, the Puka!
[Had another Ohana Night at the Siebels'...I love it here. I love Family Night. I love my life.]

Thursday, August 11, 2011

Happy Birthday Bestie!!

You know what?! I will never complain about living here in Hawaii....because I absolutely LOVE it! I'm not really sure why I didn't do it long before I even did...but I don't regret...because I love living here.

I will complain about one thing though. Living here in Oahu makes me so far from my bestie, Marlee Joy R. I miss her. And today is her birthday. Since coming back from the Philippines, I've been so confused about a lot things. I bottled up a lot of hurt...and I just tried to live for others. I tried to help other's out. But at the end of the day, when I'm all alone, thinking, right before I went to sleep...I couldn't help but think...why isn't anyone there for me. I let people take and take and take from me...and I never expect ANYTHING from ANYONE...but sometimes I think...why can't anyone be there for me?!

I think that is why I try to be the best friend that I can be to others..because I don't know what they are thinking or going I can be that one person that they can count on. That I can be that one person that they know that will be there...because I wish I had someone like that. And I do.

I've known Mar for the longest time. We grew up together...but it wasn't until around this time last year that I got super close with her. She is my strong hold. I know that if ever I need someone, she is there. During my hardest times when I finally moved back to the States, the people that I thought would be there for me...weren't...and at first I didn't even care...but when it got to much, Mar was the one who actually saw that I needed a friend. A real friend. No, don't take me wrong, I think all my friends are real...but this was the first time that someone actually saw that I needed someone right now. Not later. Not after I'm there for you. Not at a later date but Right. Now. And she was there.

If it weren't for her...who knows where I would be. I'm not stupid...I wouldn't take my life or anything....but if it weren't for her, I would probably be in that ditch of depression with no way to get out. I always tell myself NEVER to fall that low in the first place...but at that moment when I needed that someone...and no one was there...she was...and for that, I will always be grateful to her.

Happy birthday, Mar. I miss you. 
My brother, bestie and I saying goodbye at the airport [when I moved to HI]

Monday, August 8, 2011


What is going on with me?! Is it because I was so tired from this weekend's weddings?! No, I don't think so, but I'm not feeling so hot about my preschool job right now. I feel like everything is going wrong and I don't like that! Maybe it's because I have to get used to working with a new teacher again...even though I was promised to work for another...or maybe because I really am just tired...or maybe it's because it's just a was just a blah day.

Blah. Blah. Blah.


I'm just waiting for my sister to get out of the shower so that I can take my shower before I get ready for work. I hope that this week is better than last week. Oh mandope, last week I could just forget. It was a hard week...and I have no idea where this week will lead me. Hopefully, I'll be okay...and that I'll smile through out this week, ya?!

Oh, there goes my sister, she's getting out of the bathroom now!

Sunday, August 7, 2011

Sunday Wedding.

It's late...but I needed to write about today. I helped out with all three weddings...and I'm exhausted...hopefully we'll get the professional pictures soon, so that I can post them up...but today I got up at 6:am and made breakfast for Shilhi and I...we were going to need it. Then Shil and I went to Safeway [where I saw one of my lil preschoolers! :)] and got lunch for the crew and water and was going to be a LONG day.

We got to the studio and we did as much as we could. Shilhi was going to one wedding and I was going to another wedding. A lot of the arrangements could only be done at the site...but we did what we could. Shilhi and her crew left first. Then me and my crew left an hour later.

The wedding ceremony that I did was at this place called Secret Island on Kualoa Ranch. I don't think that I was ever so stressed out as much as I was on this wedding. I was told that I was going to have 2 hours to decorate the ceremony site. Basically the groom was going to provide a bamboo frame that shot up to 8 feet...and I was going to prettify it. I was a little upset when they didn't take me to the island until 20 minutes before the wedding was suppose to me 15 minutes to do a 2 hour arrangement! I have never done anything like this Shilhi had told me what she wanted it to look like and so forth...but I had to make decision on what it was going to look like. I tried to make it how the bride wanted it...and yet, keep it with the Passion Roots style while changing things up so that I can do something nice in 15 minutes.

I thought that we did an amazing job. At first it was only this guy Kaleb and I who was working on it...I'm so thankful that he was there...he took directions really good. I had to leave my sister and Desiree at the reception site after showing them what to do so that they can finish that...then these two volunteers [the groom is a teacher, so he had some of his students come to his wedding as volunteers or something] also helped, and I am so much thankful to them as well. After I did as much as I could for the ceremony I had to be brought back to the reception [which was not on the secret island] anymore and make sure things were okay there. I think my crew did a good job in-spite of the mis-communication about the time.

Then we had to hightail it out of there to help Shilhi finish the other wedding. This one was for a family friend of Shilhi...and I was suppose to meet one of my good friend [Redeem's] soon-to-be in-laws...but they never picked up their phone and so I never got to see them. But Shilhi did take some fast pictures before the reception thank you Shil, for the pictures!

Shilhi was also invited to this wedding so she stayed there for awhile while I Kaleb drove me and my sister back to the studio to do the arrangements for tomorrow...very long So much fun though...but now I must sleep so that I can go to work tomorrow without falling asleep in the middle of the day! *laughs*

Saturday, August 6, 2011


Just the other night at my Ohana's house we were talking about how we really appreciate the Sabbath. How do people do it! Working seven days straight, with no break and no relaxation. Yeah, they might take a week off some time to relax...but before, work, work, work...that's just crazy! Today was a restful day. I went to Lanikai beach with Josh and my brothers when they got back home from church...and now I am just waiting for Shilhi to pick me up to go the studio to start on the flowers and decorations for the three coming up weddings that we'll be doing this coming up weekend. It's going to be crazy. But I just wanted to take the time to say that I really appreciate Saturdays...and I'm so glad that God was watching out for us when He gave us this day of rest. He knew that I, personally need this day.

So thank you Jesus for giving me this day of rest. 

Wedding Prep.

I didn't go to church today. I know that I juss need to rest up because this weekend I have THREE weddings to prep for! Two tomorrow and then one on Monday. I know that I won't be able to go to the wedding on Monday since I have to go to my preschool work, but tonight I'll be sleeping over at Shilhi's house because we're going to stay up and do as many flower arrangements and decoration prepping as we can.

I'm sad, because my friends are going bowling today...and I wanted to go...but it's okay, because I like working with flowers too. And I haven't really done this major work like this in a long time...

But I wonder how it's going to be! Shilhi is preggers and she is already having complications with her pregnancy! I think she is only 5 weeks along too! She was making me laugh, because she told me yesterday during family night at Aunty Michele's that the doctor was telling her that she was already having complications because she is an "older mom" *laughs* we like to tease her about her age..she is already in her early 30's...but she's a cool person to hang out with. She not only is my boss...but she is part of my Ohana we get to hang out a lot.

I don't really want her to stay up that long tonight, so I might be the one who will be doing a lot of the work. But we'll see...I'm sleeping over her place tonight we'll see how it's going to go.

I hope I have time to go to the beach when everyone comes home from church before I have to go to the studio though...

Friday, August 5, 2011

Friday Night=Ohana Time.

This week was not a good week for me. Preschool work-wise. Today was not very good at all. I actually came home. Hopped in the shower just to wash away all the bad feelings...but that didn't even work. After I got out of the shower I sat down at my computer and started to look for another job...yes, it was that bad.

I'm not saying anything bad about my work. I mean, I like it for the most part...but right now I now I can't even say if the good outweighs the bad...because I just can't. I know life isn't fair, but when is it where you just have to move on because you know you don't deserve the crap that you are going through.

Again, I'm not saying bad about my work...the people are wonderful, the children are a beautiful blessing in my life, and I do have a passion for children...but why do I always feel like people are always taking me for granted?! I vented out to my brother a bit while going to my Ohana's house...and he just told me, just say no. I would say no, but I know that I can do it...but the thing is, why am I know given the same courtesy?!

I do go out of my way for people at my work, just to make things flow easier. I do try to do my best every day for the children, for my co-workers and for myself. I do. I do. I do...but am I just giving too much? I know that I'm not suppose to expect anything in return, and I don't...but maybe in a small way I do. Coz I mean, why do I have to train an aid how a new classroom works and what to do and the tips I do to make it easier...WHILE I'm training the new teacher of that classroom how things work, how to handle the children when they get too rowdy, the things that I've learned to make things easier in working in a classroom. Like I said, I don't mind doing all that, but then when I'm promised that I'll get help in going back to school for my work, when I'm promised that if I do this, then I'll get that, when I'm promised that I'll get help...and then I'm thrown in a new classroom that I never been in before, I don't know the schedule, I don't know the routine, I don't know the kids, I don't know how it flows in there...and no one is there to help me, yet I get "scolded" when I do something "wrong" and when I ask for help, all I get is that "we're all busy" or I can figure it out myself or whatever...I don't think it's fair. Granted, I do get some help, I guess when they see that I'm struggling; I finally stopped asking for help. I know that they haven't totally abandoned me; it just feels like it.

I'm fed up.

This week was shit to me.

But thank you that it's Friday. Oh thank you that it's Friday. 

Because that means it's Ohana night with my family. And boy, does that makes all the difference my life. Where I am able to unwind and just enjoy my Hawaiian family. I had my favorite Saigon Noodle House food, Roro's [Uncle Rod's famous cinnamon buns that he makes EVERY Friday that are The. Best. (We call them "Roro's because that's what the little grandchildren call them.:))], and my older brother brought a really yummy Chocolate Gonosh cake from Diamond Head Bakery that is simply The. Best. cake [that my sister doesn't make, she makes The. Best. Cake. In. The. World.]

Yes. Thank you for Friday nights. Because I love Ohana Time.

I wish this time didn't have to end. It was funny coz all of us were tired, so after dinner all of us just blobbed out in the living room while the Grandchildren took a moonbath and just relaxed with everyone. Starting tomorrow night again it's going to chaos...but with my Wedding/Event job. Three weddings in one's going to be crazy preparing it all...but get ready, get set, go!

Thursday, August 4, 2011

Wow. Proposal.

When I first saw this I could not stop smiling. The second time I saw it, same reaction. And I think that it will always be my reaction when I see this cute proposal. Some guys just know how to amaze their girlfriends! I can only imagine just how hard it is to take up the courage to propose to a girl...I know that I'm thinking...seriously?! Is it that hard... especially if you [should] know the answer already...but I also think that it is hard...I mean this is the ultimate laying-your-heart-out-on-the-chopping-block type of thing. Rejection sucks...but wow, this proposal so made me smile. If only...

Well, I hope that it made you smile just as much as it made me smile...:) Enjoy it again...and again...and again...and smile. :)

"I'm not waiting for the one who makes me take a second look, but for the one who makes me never want to look away in the first place."

Sneak Peak: Tiare and Gary's Wedding.

Last July 10...I helped do a very creative and fun wedding at the Halekulani. It was a beautiful day...and it was a beautiful wedding. Tiare is a "huge Apple fan" [her words], however her husband likes OS better...and all through their relationship they would have "fights" and "competitions" on who's phone, computer, whatever is better.

When Gary proposed to her they joking said that they were going to put the Apple and Android as the cake topper on their cake.

From there they decided to have their whole wedding theme revolved around that! Apple vs. Android. When I first heard about it...and saw their invitation...I was kind of sketchy on how that would turn out...but let me tell you, it was a very beautiful wedding! The color was based around purple...and it was very elegant. Everywhere you can think of though, Apple vs. Android was embedded in it!

I worked Sunday on this wedding...and the next day I went to my day job where one of the preschoolers came up to me and said that he saw me. He was the bible bearer in Tiare and Gary's wedding! That made me smile.

KITV did a video on the wedding and you can view it here at Social Wire: An iPhone and Android Wedding. J.R. Bookwalter of Mac|Life also wrote an article about the wedding that you can read here called When Apple meets Android: Wedding of the Century?

I don't have the professional pictures yet, however, my boss did take some pictures and so here is a sneak peak of this beautiful wedding! Thank you to my boss Shilhi for the pictures!

Here is one of the table settings that was used. I think that it was a great idea that they had an "iPad" as seating charts! It was simple a black frame and they printed out the guest names for the tables on what looks like the contact view of an iPhone! And for the cute little Android for the table numbers! On the cupcakes that you can't really see is also the logo of of Apple and Android!

For the tree I just simple draped it lots of small crystal beads and placed green moss and purple Makara orchids. Beautiful, ya?!

Shilhi came up with this awesome piece for the head table. Basically we filled this really long rectangular vase halfway with water, dropped in some crystal with it and lit floating candles in it. Also in opened clear glass balls we had Makara orchid blossoms floating in them. We used bear grass to give it extra texture and draped matching crystal bead chains to connect the look with the center pieces.

Cute! :)

Their cute and fun cake!

Wrapped around the tree we fashioned copper gold wire into USB cords to fit with the Apple vs. Android theme!

The gorgeous bride Tiare with her beautiful bouquet!

One of the bigger pieces that we used at the ceremony.

Congratulations to Tiare and Gary! May you two have a fun life together filled with lots of laughter, smiles and friendly "competitions" over Apple vs. Android! :)


Today I was pretty much frustrated all day. Mind you, I am not complaining here. I'm just stating that I am frustrated and then I am going to proceed to tell you why I am frustrated, but I am NOT complaining.

I'm frustrated because I was promised that I was going to work in this one classroom with this one person after I trained the new teacher and her aid. I'm frustrated because I had to train them... especially the aid because she has been here for awhile, and grated she never really stayed in the room 2 room, she still knows that schedule and how things run.

I'm frustrated because when I started, no one trained me...I had to do the whole trial and error thing and yes, get a "scolding" if I was in error and I didn't know.

I'm frustrated because when I had to switch classrooms, no one taught me the way it was in that classroom. I had to actually teach that class on my own since the girl who was there walked off and never came back! And then when the teacher came back [it was me an another aid when I was in there because the teacher was on a break or something...and that first day the aid walked out, leaving me alone with the kids] I had to get used to the way she did things and learn on my own how to do it.

I'm frustrated because whenever a classroom needs help, I always try to find a way to help them out...while being in my class...confused?! Yes, I know, try living it.

I'm frustrated because I keep getting promised different things and then it's not being delivered.

I'm frustrated because I was put in a different classroom and I didn't even know that I was suppose to be until this morning and I have never been in this room and even though I try to help out by taking the trash out or watching her children in the bathroom or something...I have never just been in there to know how things are and how her style of teaching is.

I'm frustrated because my boss and the teacher just expected me to know all these things that I didn't and I got a "scolding"...uhm...HELLO! Why doesn't someone help me out! I know that life isn't fair...but come on now, I am trying...

I'm frustrated because when I got back from my lunch break the teacher was gone and I was expected to know what to do now...I mean, yes, I can figure things out and do something that has the children in mind with learning...but I wish I was told that that was going to happen.

Today was a very frustrating day. I didn't like today. But it's's not all over. I'll be able to survive. I will smile.

Wednesday, August 3, 2011


I have a new addiction. It kind of reminds me of listography and We Heart It put together. And it's called Pinterest. Copying from their website, they say that pinterest is a "virtual pinboard." So basically, you download this "pin" in your bookmarks...and when you are surfing the 'net...and you find something that is "pin" it to your board. And then when you go to your pinterest site, it has it for you right there. And you can add boards to it...and yes, I just love this new place! My sister invited me and that is how I got in. The way you join though is you have to get invited. So if you want to get started on your pinterest boards....just leave me your email address and your name and I'll send you an invite!

Some of the boards that I have going are:

Those are only a few that I grabbed right quick...I have over 68 [and counting!] let me know if you want to join...and I'll send you and invite [since it's only invite only!]

Oh yeah, and if you wanted to know my listography page, check me out here. And my weheartit page is here. And if you want to look at my pinterest page or want if you already have an account...them check me out here!

Happy Pinning! :)

I started playing the piano more again. Don't get me wrong, I've always been playing the piano...but I miss just sitting there playing for hours...I don't as much time anymore...but I have started playing more...I even go to this one site all the time and buy music there. I miss that feeling. That feeling of getting new music to play. I remember my parents would always buy me new books to play and I would get excited to play the new songs...and buying new songs now is just exciting as it was when I was growing up in my parents house.

I started getting more religious all started out coz my friend asked me to play for him. At first I didn't really want to, because that means that I would have to go to church for that day...but then I said, what the heck and I went and now he wants me to play for him again. I didn't have the music that he wanted to sing, so I had to look for it online and I found this really nice site that sells pretty accurate music...[if you were looking for music go here.]

I remember playing the piano use to be my way of relaxing my troubled mind thinking...and I find that it still has that calming effect on me. I don't really know what I stopped playing for fun. I don't really like playing out for people...but I love playing on my own and singing. I remember when music use to be such a big part of my life...and it still sister always tells me that my life is like a broadway since I'm always breaking out in song...and I like having music playing whenever I can.

One day, I think that it would be nice to make an album...not to sell, but just to make one. Music. I don't think that living in a world without music would be very nice...

Tuesday, August 2, 2011


I have been listening to this group for awhile now. And I need to say that I think that these two are very talented people. Amy and Nick are engaged to each other and together they are called Karmin. I remember the first time that I heard them was when I was at my friend's house and my sister who was there with us was like, "Che listen to this!!!"

And I was like, who is that?! And ever since then, I loved listening to them...they are very talented and she looks like she has a lot of fun with her fiance when she sings. He even looks like he has fun with her too! Well, I just wanted to share this with you...and put this in my blog so I can look back at it and remember! Here are two more of my other favorite that they do!

This one makes me feel kilig inside because it's so cute. The description of this say that when they made this they were celebrating their 5th year together! I'm glad that they are together...they look really happy and I think they go well together...They are so silly!

The beginning alone on this one that they did is cute..."Nick, can we do something a little more modern?!" *laughs* She seems so fun!

If you want to hear more songs that they cover, you can go here. They also have a place where they have their own original songs here.