Monday, September 29, 2008


OH MY GOODNESS… "Can this be love I'm feeling right now, I know for certain I'm reeling inside, I don't recall ever feeling this way, tell what does one say to one who makes me feel this way…" okay, well, I'm not feeling in love right now…oh wait, I take that back…I AM in love right now…I'm juss full of feeling really…I'm really, really excited! I'm superness, hyperness, extremelyness excited…because guess what?! I'm going home in FIVE DAYS! Oh my goodness…so when I started my countdown, I was like, when will I ever get to double digits!? (98 more days….25 more days…) and then I was like oh my goodness, I'm at double digits now…and now look at me, I'm at single digits…only five more days…Shiet, I'm so excited that the time is almost here…but also in a panic because I have so much to do…I have reports and projects to finish, I have to finish enrolling, at least pre-enrolling, I need to PACK…I need to clean the apartment so that the person who will be living in my place won't have a hard time settling in, I need to buy pasaloubong, I need to do my finals, I need to secure a ride to the airport, finalize who is going to pick me up in Frisco, my goodness…I can't even begin to explain how much in a panic I am in. But it's all good because in juss a few days, I'll be home sweet home…in another panic! *laughs* this time the panic will be revolving around my sister's wedding…!

So yesterday I met up with my favorite people here in the Philippines…oh goodness…I know we aren't suppose to have "favorites"…but yeah, Jynnylicious and Joynessless are pretty much my favorite people here, and I can't forget Edilyn…aka Eddie…he's there too. We went to Mall of Asia to meet up for maybe the last time before I go home. I'm hoping that I can meet up with them again on Wednesday to see the movie Eagle Eye…but then I don't know, I'm super busy and I don't know if I can fit that in my schedule…but we will see…I'll see if I can.

Oh! So yeah, I went to Manila to meet up with these wonderful people, and Jynny wanted to catch a movie…but the movie's out here are so outdated…they come out at home so much faster than they do here…anyways, there wasn't any movie that I wasn't to thrilled to catch, but then it was all good…because it was the company…diba?! Anyways…our options…was these awful movies that were rated horrible, so I didn't wanna watch them (Eddie is like a movie critic, if he says that he didn't like it, I won't even bother watching unless it's something that I know that he wouldn't like anyways, but I know that I would like…like my animation movies *laughs*) There was NO movie that I wanted to see…but Jynny really wanted too…so I was like what the hell…so it was either…Sisterhood of the Traveling Pants II or My Bestfriend's Girl. Or something like that…after at least 30 minute debate and hemming and hawing…we finally decided to watch…Sisterhood of the Traveling Pants II…*rolls eyes* so I don't really like movies like that…but whatever…guess who was the most kilig through out the whole movie?! Yeah, that would be me and Joyness…mainly me. *laughs*…yeah, like I said, I don't like movies like that. I always get all kilig…but I know that when reality kicks in…that can never happen…like at the drop of a pin…lets all go to Greece…juss like that…yeah, unless you are super rich and you know how to get around Greece juss like that…then hey, go for it…but yeah. But I was a kilig movie…best friends forever type of thing. *laughs*

Anyways…so I was in Mall of Asia, and we were trying to buy something FOR my sister for *********** (secret!!) and then we were trying to find something to buy for my sister and her honey bunches of love…but we couldn't figure out what to buy. It was hella funny because since we had Eddie with us…he was like being a perfect gentleman and trying to give his input…like here is a question we would pose to him… "Eddie, if you were getting married…and on your wedding night, would you want your girl to be wearing this or that…?!" Lol…and Jynny was RIGHT THERE…awkward, yes I know, but funny…we would even ask the sales people…if they were male…then the same question that we asked Eddie, if they were female…a little revising…*laughs* but it was fun. I miss Jynny and Joyness…they always make me laugh. Yeah, we have our moments, but for the most part…they are great friends to have.

Basically I won't regret coming here to the Philippines because of them.

Anyways…what else have I been up too?! Well, for my Human Development class, I have to make a self-analysis scrapbook of myself…I really don't like doing that because that means I have to return back to my past and there are something that I would like to forget for the meantime in my past. It feels like I have two different lives…and when I look back at my past, it's like whoa…was that in the same lifetime that I did that!? It doesn't seem very likely and stuff…like my time in college here is NOTHING compared to my college life back at home. My life here is NOTHING compared to my life back at home. And it was kinda hard for me to revisit some of the things that I would rather forget…but whatever…I'm about finish with my scrapbook…and yeah….

Anyways, I have class in a few and I should get going now…I'm juss pretty excited to be going home again and I have to admit, I don't think that it's going to fully hit me that my sister is getting married until I'm home and I see her face. I love my sister.

*hugs and kisses*

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Monday, September 22, 2008

I'm SO happy!

So OMG! I'm super happy that my best friend will be picking me up from the airport...for a moment there I though I was going to be left hanging when I got to Frisco...but I won't that's good. I'm so excited to see her (ES-rah!!). I'm really excited to see's been WAY too long away from home and it's about time I go home!
So, I am SO proud of my World Literature groupmates, for a long moment there I thought that we were going to fail, because...well, let me start at the beginning. So our teacher said that as our final, we had to perform a TWO hour drama! She told us this in the beginning of the semester. The group wanted me to be the leader, but I know the people here and I know that no one here is very good at group projects, and so I didnt' want to be the leader. Anyways...a week before we were supose to perform, which was LAST Monday, our leader bailed on us and told us that she didn't want to be a leader any somehow I got stuck with being the leader. Don't ask me how...I juss did. Anyways, I wrote out a drama thingy...complete with 11 acts and scenes and stuff...and we preformed it today, and it went really well! i'm so proud of my group and i made a lot of friends out of it as well...

anyways, i just wanted to say that because i have other stuff to do now...but yeah, juss sharing that.

i'm doing a countdown and it's now 12 days! And i'm SO excited! jejeje...

*hugs and kisses

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Thursday, September 18, 2008

Don't trust anyone.

So I have this neighbor that I'm actually pretty close with. He makes me laugh, because for some reason it's REALLY hot in my apartment and he's just next door and his place is noticeably a LOT cooler than mine. So I'm always over at his place. He's from Ethiopia and his room mate is fromAngola. I wanna go to Africa one day! *laughs* (I also want to go to Belizetoo! I wanna go snorkeling and scuba diving there!) Anyways, I can always count on him to offer me coffee, to let me go to his room and lay on his bed and watch a movie, and he never fails to remind me, "Don't trust anyone."

Don't trust anyone. I trust people. But this is what I have learned, the more you trust people, the more hurt you will get. I remember asking this question to my friend way back in 9th grade in Arizona, "Why does love hurt?" She told me because someone you hate can't hurt you, they can only make you hate them more or get you more angry, but they can't hurt you. But someone you love, you are vulnerable to them. I think that same thing goes with trust. When you trust someone, you are vulnerable to them.

There are two advices that two different guys have given me that I have really thought about. 1) Whenever you think you are in a bad situation, remember someone out there has it worst than you and 2) don't trust anyone. The first one my boyfriend told me. Me being in the Philippines away from home, away from everything that I have ever known, far, far, far away from my comfort zone—way far away from my comfort zone—puts everything in a whole new perspective. There has been so many tough times here where I thought that I can't go on, there has been so many times where I just wanted to give up, there have been so many times where I wanted to become anti-social because it hurts when a friend betrays you…but when I think that someone out there does have it worst than me, it doesn't really make me feel any better, but it does put things in a new perspective. I mean hey, yeah, being a foreigner can't be all that bad. It's pretty bad, but it's not the worst thing ever. I'm pretty lucky that I have my own place so that I can get away when being "out there" gets to be too hard.

The second advice my neighbor gave me. He was another one of those guys who thought I was fake when he first saw me. He was actually my classmate, and he told me that he has never met a girl…a person really who talked as fast as I did. *laughs* So, I changed a lot from being away from home…but I guess something that will NEVER change is the speed of which I talk. *laughs* Anyways, another person who assumes that I'm "super nice and friendly" because I want something…*laughs* why can't a person just be nice and friends without wanting something, anyways, he's my neighbor, and he has realized that I'm not fake, but being nice and friendly is juss who I am. I talk a lot and I'm friendly. *laughs* He told me…actually he even warned me from trusting him. He told me that once you trust someone, that person can hurt you—whether it is unintentionally or intentionally, you will get hurt by that person. I told him that I had trust issues…I think I trust to easily when it comes to making friends, and it is only when I get hurt will I never trust that person again. But when it comes to making a commitment with someone, it's hard for me. (Right Chris?! *laughs*) He said to keep it that way…always be cautious who I trust. And

I do think that he has a point there. My neighbor said that you can't get hurt if you're cautious with your trust. He also told me that he would never lie to me, but when I asked him how can I trust that since he told me not to trust him…he just laughed.

He also told me that I always leave my hair all over their floor! *laughs*

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Monday, September 15, 2008

Read this...thanks Joe!

 i don'​​t care if you have a boyfr​iend or girlf​riend​ right​ now.​​.​​.​​.​​ I dont care if you are a guy or a woman​ or Micha​el Jacks​on.​​.​​.​​.​​.​​just read this,​​ it will make a diffe​rence​.​​.​​.​​.​​.
​if only every​one could​ see this and under​stand​ it.
When she stare​s at your mouth
[ Kiss her ]

When she pushe​s you or hits you like a dumb ass cuz she think​s shes stron​ger than you
[ Grab her and dont let go ]

When she start​s cursi​ng at you tryin​ to act all tuff
[ Kiss her and tell her you love her ]

When she'​​s quiet
[ Ask her whats​ wrong​ ]

When she ignor​es you
[ Give her your atten​tion ]

When she pulls​ away
[ Pull her back ]

When you see her at her worst
[ Tell her she'​​s beaut​iful ]

WHen you see her start​ cryin​g
[​​Just hold her and dont say a word ]

When you see her walki​ng
[ Sneak​ up and hug her waist​ from behin​d ]

When she'​​s scare​d
[ Prote​ct her ]

When she steal​s your favor​ite hat
[ Let her keep it and sleep​ with it for a night​ ]

When she tease​s you
[ Tease​ her back and make her laugh​ ]

When she doesn​'​​t answe​r for a long time
[ reass​ure her that every​thing​ is okay ]

When she looks​ at you with doubt
[ Back yours​elf up ]

When she says that she likes​ you

When she grabs​ at your hands
[ Hold her'​​s and play with her finge​rs ]

When she bumps​ into you;
[ bump into her back and make her laugh​ ]

When she tells​ you a secre​t
[ keep it safe and untol​d ]

When she looks​ at you in your eyes
[ dont look away until​ she does ]

When she says it's over
[ she still​ wants​ you to be hers ]

When she repos​ts this bulle​tin
[ she wants​ you to read it ]

- Stay on the phone​ with her even if she'​​s not sayin​g anyth​ing.
- When she'​​s mad hug her tight​ and don'​​t let go
- When she says she'​​s ok dont belie​ve it, talk with her
- becau​se 10 yrs later​ she'​​ll remem​ber you
- Call her at 12:​​00am on her birth​day to tell her you love her
- Treat​ her like she'​​s all that matte​rs to you.
- Stay up all night​ with her when she'​​s sick.
- Watch​ her favor​ite movie​ with her or her favor​ite show even if you think​ it's stupi​d.
- Give her the world​.
- Let her wear your cloth​es.
- When she'​​s bored​ and sad, hang out with her.
- Let her know she'​​s impor​tant.
- Kiss her in the pouri​ng rain.
- When she runs up to you cryin​g,​​ the first​ thing​ you say is;
"​​Whose​ ass am I kicki​ng baby?​​