Wait for the one...

TO ALL OF YOU LADIES OUT THERE WHO JUST JUMP FOR ANY GUY THAT'S BREATHING:

Find a guy who calls you beautiful instead of hott,
who calls you back when you hang up on him,
who will stay awake just to watch you sleep.

Wait for the guy who kisses your forehead,
who wants to show you off to the world when you are in your sweats,
who holds your hand in front of his friends.

Wait for the one who is constantly reminding you of how much he cares about you and how lucky he is to have you.

Wait for the one who turns to his friends and says,".....that's her."

Wait for a guy..... who can wrestle with you and let you win.... who u can talk to about anything... who laughs at your jokes.... who puts your cold hands in his warm hoodie pockets.... who lets you use his sweatshirt for a pillow....

Wait for a guy who will kiss you in the rain, in the sunshine, and in the snow.... who calls unexpectedly.... who will have many inside jokes with you and remember each one.... a guy who notices haircuts.... who realizes that you may say things in anger but don't always mean them....

Wait for a guy who you can go swimming with on hot days.... a guy who can tell you his problems and let you help.... who will listen to you talk... who will bring you seashells from the beach.... who will let you "beat him up" when you get angry....

Wait for a guy who writes love letters to you, but doesn't always send them.... who draws you pictures and slips them gently into your locker slot.... who saves his genuine, big smiles for you.... who has deep eyes, that can see through faces into depths....

Wait for a guy who wears baseball hats and lets you wear his too. ... who gives you his t-shirt to change into and not expect to get it back.... who knows your favorite color, song, car, vegetable, perfume, and the color of your toothbrush....

Wait for a guy who will shake your dad's hand and look your mom in the eye.... who will call you by your full name--first, middle and last.... who will know when something is wrong when you're trying your best to put on an act... who will kiss you and tell you you're beautiful....

Wait for a guy who will let you cry to him.... who will hold you and kiss your cheek.... who suprises you and compliments and plays with your hair.... who will brag about you to all of his friends...who will not tell his friends about the intimate stuff you did...

Wait for a guy who is not afraid to give you a great big hug right in front of his mom... who smells like he just stepped out of the shower.... who will cut his hair when he knows it looks bad... who wears cologne that you can subtly smell when you're leaning on his shoulder....

Wait for a guy who will not try to meet up with other girls if he knows you'll get jealous...who tells you that you have a nice laugh and a smile that lights up the room... and who is simply yours to hold....................

You'll find him! Just be Patient!!!! God will provide one for you when the time is right!!! =)

You don't need to spend your time looking, or spend your time waiting...Spend your time preparing...


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Different...

I feel as if the last time I wrote a blog...I was a different person. Lets see...I'm not in school anymore...I'm volunteering my time as a missionary...and wow...it's different. A lot different and it has opened my eyes to a lot of things...a lot of things...and I seriously thought I was a pretty well-rounded person...then something like this happens and I'm like what?!

Well, let me see,  I was suppose to go home...but that obviously didn't happen and I am so looking forward to be going home SOON. I was suppose to be home for my brother's birthday...my parents anniversary...my daddy's birthday...my best friend's birthday...thanksgiving...and everything in between...but that obviously didn't/is not happen/ing. But I'm still going to be positive...I'm going to Hawaii...hopefully, I'll see my sister...and I'm going home SOON. And even though I'm not really sure where I'll be, I'll be "home" for good, I think. *laughs* I never know...seriously...I don't really know...I juss know that I really hope that I don't get too restless again...

I realize now that I really don't like living on a mountain...I'm not saying that there is anything wrong with living on a mountain...but I can feel more happy near the water...the ocean to be exact. Yes, I love the ocean...Palawan. Oh my goodness...that place is just so very beautiful. I had so much fun there, and I met a lot of awesome people there...and it's just so beautiful. I can't even express...I dove into the clear water and ALL these fish just swam up to me, kinda freaked me out at first...but then it was an amazing experience. The fish were beautiful...the water so clear and it was perfect. Can't find something like that in the mountain...

But then again...it's different...taking a bath in the river...and actually able to drink the water from the river...yeah, I thought I was gonna have stomach problems because of that...and even though real water doesn't have taste this water was fresh water, so pure...and sweet even...don't ask...it just was.

You type Ilocos Norte in google and you get all these beaches...and yes, it is filled with beaches...but in all reality, I was far from that...I was on a freaking mountain...and you think Angwin is in the middle of nowhere...think again, mi amigos! Neuva Era is in the middle of the middle of nowhere...! Serious...! Just going up the mountain in a krung krung was an adventure in itself...whats a krung krunk? Oh here...let me explain...a motor bike...yeah...and get like a shopping cart...saw off the wheels and put one huge wheel on one side and wield the other side to the motorbike...sit in it...and that is a krung krung...and dont' think that road is paved...it's not...it's like four-wheeling...with no seatbelt and only a prayer to keep you safe...it's fun. *laughs* My goodness...my whole experience there is a memory I will never forget!!

Well, I need to get going. I'm going to meet up with a friend to just whatever and stuff with...*laughs*

I miss you all so much...

"she needs more than a love song..."

*hugs and kisses*


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I'm standing up.

so yeah...it's been awhile since i last wrote in here...and i know that i do have other bloggies to post and stuff...but i can't be bothered to copy and paste and stuff...so this is gonna be it. my goodness...so much has happened in the last 2 weeks...that's for sure!
yesterday i was talking to my friend and juss in the past year...well, since last march at this time to this time right now, so much has happened! So much that i didn't even think that it would happen. the one that surpised me the most is falling in "like" twice...my goodness...from ice princess to this chica who has let her walls down too many times in one year...goodness gracious...i need to get a hold of myself.

my cuzzo is graduating and i'm so proud of him, i knew that he could do it, and he did do it...but this time next week...he's gonna have in his hands an undergraduate diploma, and i'm so happy for him. SO COGRATS EDDIO-ZIPPIO...

aiight then, i don't feel like writing anymore...and blah-blah-blah...i juss wanted to get away from my apartment for a moment...and so i had nothing else to do so i came here...now i'm getting restless again from juss sitting here...and so yeah...

tetenkek=take care...jejeje...it's ahmaric..see, i'm learning something!

*hugs and kisses*


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Bored.

Hello. I’m really bored…if I had a choice of what to do right now, hm…I would go to the beach and jump the waves. Yep, that’s what I would do right now. I would call someone up to go with me. And I would go to the beach to do that…but the reason why I can’t do that is because I don’t have a car here, and everyone that I know who has a car is smart enough not to be here…and the public transportation doesn’t run this “late” at night. Yeah, this places goes to “sleep” really early…like at 10.00pm…something that I had a hard time getting used too, and I still am having a hard time getting used too, but it’s okay, because I’m here and yeah, it’s different, and I know that I won’t be here for ever, so I guess I juss have to embrace the culture. *laughs*

It’s been pretty hot these past couple of days…the kind of days that you wish you can be lazy and juss go out and tan under the sun with strawberry lemonade and friends. *laughs* or juss go to the beach and go swimming and snorkeling in the ocean. And playing football and volleyball and keep-away and all the other fun stuff. Oh goodness…the days where I could juss call up a bunch of friends and juss head to the beach…or juss that one special person at any time of the day or night and juss go to the beach…star gaze and juss make memories. 

*laughs* “I think we dream so we don’t have to be apart so long. If we are in each others dreams, we can play together all night.”–Bill Watterson…yeah, that’s for ******….*laughs* He’s going to sleep now, and he juss said his “goodnights”… “friends lang daw!! Sabi ni Divine…!!”*laughs* yep…and I stand by that statement…we are juss friends. 

Aww…crap…and now she gotta ruin my night!! My teacher JUSS texted me…and it’s already 11.15pm (yeah, I was talking to him for a bit…) and said that I have to be in church at 8.am sharp because I have to do offering or something…how messed up is that to juss tell me that NOW…that really irritates me. Yeah, she messes up my “happy thoughts.” Ugh…and I told him that I would meet him in the morning. Oh well, I’m sure he will understand, I’ll juss wake up extra early and then yeah…oh my goodness…WHO does that?! Requires attendance for going to church?! That’s why I stopped going to church in the first place because I felt like I was forced too…now, I’m being forced too again! Ugh…ugh…ugh…I guess that means I gotta go lay in my bed and try to force myself to go to sleep now so that I can wake up early. Blah-blah to her!!

Anyways…goodnight and sweetdreams…have a wonderful weekend. And smile…it’s the best natural accessory you can have and it’s free. Love ya and miss ya muchoness!!

*hugs*

“It’s hard to live alone. But it’s harder to choose someone to love. And the hardest part of loving is to admit that you’ve fallen in-love for someone…you didn’t plan to fall for.”

Rabbit!! Rabbit!!

Hello everyone…RABBIT, RABBIT!! Yeah, that’s right, I said it first. *smiles* but yeah…goodness, sometimes I wish that I can turn back the hands of the clock and go back to the time where life was good and easy. But most times, looking towards the future is pretty scary, but interesting.

“Keep holding on, cause you know I’ll make it through, juss stay strong, cause you know I’m here for you. There’s nothing you can say. Nothing you can do, there’s no other way when it comes to the truth, keep holding on, cause you know I’ll make it through.”

Here’s a quote for you that my friend sent me this morning, “I, not events, have the power to make me happy or unhappy today. I can choose which it shall be. Yesterday is dead, tomorrow hasn’t arrived yet. I have just one day, today, and I’m going to be happy in it.” And that is the new motto in my life. I need to be happy. I want to be happy and I WILL be happy. That is my choice, and aint nobody gonna take that away from me. Nope, aint nobody can. 

So I talked to my sister and my brother today…it was the shortest of all shortest talks…like barely even a minute each…and my friend that I was with, who is Indo was asking me what I was talking…and I looked at her funny and said that I was talking in English…and she was like telling me that I was talking so fast that she didn’t realize that it was even English! And she asked me if my sister/brother could understand me. *laughs* And I said, yes, they understand me. I don’t think that I was even talking that fast even. But then again, I have to always think and be conscious about the pace of how I talk because I know that I do have a faster pace of talking…naturally, and so I have to talk slow…goodness…but anyways…I did grow up with my sister and brother and so yes, they would understand the words that are coming out of my mouth.

I miss them so much. I miss them more that I can possibly say. For someone who talks a lot, it’s amazing that there are certain things that I can’t even express…except to say that I miss someone a lot. I do though, my sister and my brother…even though I rarely talk to them now, I think that they are still the only two people in the world that understands me the most. Oh, don’t get me wrong, I miss my parents a lot…oh goodness, I miss them a lot…but it’s my sister and my brother that I miss super, duper, uber, much.

This year feels like it juss started, but then it also feels like it has been forever…but it’s juss the third month of this year, and so far wow…things that I never could ever even predict are happening and yep, life is way interesting, and it’s has it’s lil quirks and twists and ironies…and situations that make you wanna juss scream…yep, like I said, sometimes I wish that I could turn back that hands of time and juss go back to the time where life was good and easy and the tears that fell from my face were the tears of laughter. *laughs* but you know what?! Life is good…and I still love life…and I still am looking forward to what the future holds, and to live my life day by day and live today…and I will try not to dwell on the past, and I will not be anxious for tomorrow…but juss smile because you know what?! I’m lucky…because life may be hard, but I have also been blessed. And I choose to be happy. 

Aww…so I juss talked to my brotherhood again…and ahh! I miss him…! He is at ....Pleasant Hill.... right now playing volleyball…I miss playing volleyball…I really miss playing volleyball…goodness gracious I really miss it. I wonder if I’ll ever get into it again, I wish that I could practice some…but maybe one day, I’ll be able to play it again. But he is playing volleyball, and I’m here writing this bloggie thingy-thing-thing. And so yeah. 

I gotta go now..love you all and miss you all too!!

“If everything embarrasses you, you will never have fun.”

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Confused?! Its when..

....So, I wrote this to my friend, and I wanna share it with you too, okay?! “’Confused?! It’s when your mind says, let go…but your heart tells you to hold on. It’s when your mind says, be still…but your heart screams go on. It’s when your mind says, lets leave…but your heart whispers lets stay. It’s when your mind says, this isn’t right…but your heart knows no other way…’ ******, you’re right, life isn’t easy, but you gotta admit, it’s an interesting ride. JEverything happens for a reason, and if you don’t take risks, you’d always wonder what would have happened. People get hurt along the way—sometimes you, sometimes the other person, but just think about it this way, is it all worth it?! And in the end can you still smile?! ‘Never regret anything that made you smile.’…” And now taking my own advise, I don’t regret anything. “He” made me smile when I really needed it. Although sometimes thinking about “him” breaks my heart because I’m reminded of what happened…for the most part, I’m glad that it happened, because I hate being dragged along the mud. And it made me realize that I am super glad that he is my friend. I talked to him for the first time yesterday…and I was okay. I am okay, I survived…I knew that I could…granted the past month was hell for me, but when I was talking to him, I realize that I am glad that I took that risk long ago and said, “yes” to him…because at least we both know that as “together” we weren’t mean to be…but I have a good feeling about our friendship and stuff. It was good talking to him…I missed hearing his voice and juss laughing and talking and sharing with him.

Yesterday was so hectic, man! My goodness…all day long I would work on my thesis, I had to write chapters 1, 2 AND 3…and then I had to send it to my teacher by 7.pm…well, I was working on it all day long, and by 7.pm, I still wasn’t able to pass it in. I asked Achalu to go with me to Paseo so that I can use the internet at Mocha Blends and finish it there and then send it to my teacher there. He had an exam today, so he said that he would go with me if I promised that I wouldn’t talk to him. *laughs* yeah, I know I talk a lot…anyways, we went to Red Ribbon first and yeah, I talked and talked and talked a lot…but when I got to Mocha Blends, I was so concentration on my homework…and I actually finished it…by 10.30pm and so I sent it off…only to find out that out of my whole class, I was the only one who was able to send it, and I feel bad now because I don’t wanna seem like the goodie-two-shoes! I was actually surprised because there are some that ALWAYS turn things in…and they didn’t even get close to finishing!! I know that mine wasn’t perfect or anything, but at least I tried and I passed in something in…oh okay, so given 3 hours late…but I slaved my butt off for it, and I skipped all my classes for it too…! I do try to pass my classes…especially my major classes…but I know what the teachers think of me because they see that I’m always laughing and joking and never really taking things too seriously…but I am a serious person when it comes to certain things. My personality though is that I like to laugh and smile and sing and juss joke around with people…when all things are stressful and tense, I like to be that person who tries to lighten the mood, if I can. But don’t get me wrong, I can be serious…my goodness…I can be serious.

It’s funny because my friend was telling me that he could always hear me singing and my music on full blast from my apartment, and so it’s like I never study…but when he looks in on me, he sees that I am studying…I juss can’t concentrate on certain things when I don’t have music…even when he was watching me study last night when we went to Paseo, he saw that I would dance with the music that was playing and I was always singing along with the music, but he was like saying that I was so concentrated on my homework that he didn’t even think that I would even notice the other stuff that I was doing…like the singing and the dancing part. *laughs* And he said that I would read out-loud a lot to myself…I remember back in high school, when I was on the couch reading my textbook with one of the guys in my class (oh Caleb! I miss you!) it was Caleb that pointed out that I would read really fast out loud to myself…and until then, I never really noticed that about myself…but when I think about it, I can understand why I do that…I know that I can read fast, and if it’s something that I really want to understand and get…not like a story/chapter book type of thing, but like school books and stuff…I know that I can skim over the words and then not really understand what I’m reading, so I read really fast out loud to myself in a whisper…*laughs* And Achalu was telling me that when he would watch me study, I was constantly moving, like not even 10 seconds would pass that I’m sitting still…even if I was reading something, I would be moving to the music. *laughs* Or I would flip my hair or twirl it or something. *laughs* But then I’ve always known that about myself, I’m always moving…*laughs* 

Oh goodness, so I’m listening to Island Music…and I’m listening to Wipeout by The Ventures…and I can juss imagine myself surfing right now…oh goodness…I wanna go to Hawaii!!! Achalu…June 17, 2020!!! You besta be there! Oh now Drop Baby Drop is playing…goodness, I wanna go to a luau…I miss wearing kakui nuts and puko shells…and oh my goodness…Ate Faith and Kuya Neal…I wanna go visit you! But no matter what June 17, 2020…and some days around that day, Imma be there…shit, Imma be 34!! *laughs* Aww…such memories… “…and I promise you Love and Honesty” *laughs* Awww…Chelle and Cesar…I miss you two…wow, I haven’t thought of you two in such a long time, but that doesn’t mean that I don’t think about you two from time to time…

Well, anyways, I’m bored na, so imma juss end this now…I miss you all…like I always say…*laughs*…but I really mean it…!!

*hugs*

“I wanna tell you, Baby, that you’re the one the one I’m thinking of, but your heart is still with her, and I think that she is the one that you love. I only want you happy, even if it’s not with me. Maybe one day, you’ll open your eyes and you’ll see, that I think I’m fallin’, baby I’m fallin’ for you…! Yeah, I think I’m fallin…baby, I’m fallin for you…”

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Oh no...!!!

It’s already one minute past 10.pm and I juss got back from class…I didn’t get to go jogging, because it’s already past curfew, and I can’t go back on campus anymore to go jogging (there is no where to jog around my apartment complex and stuff) and so I’m kinda wind up and stuff…I was outside for a bit, the air is cooler outside and the clouds are moving fast so I can glimpse at the stars. I really wanna see the big dipper…but oh well, I know that it’s there…somewhere…

“I don’t wanna close my eyes, I don’t wanna fall asleep, coz I’ll miss you baby, and I don’t wanna miss a think, coz even when I dream again, the sweetest dream will never to, coz I’ll still miss you, baby….”

My friend asked me how it was possible to stay happy all the time…my goodness, if only he know what I was really feeling inside…and I said this, that at any given time a person can feel a lot of emotions at the same time, ya?! Well, whenever I’m sad, I know that there is something to be happy for. Whenever I’m happy, I’m also sad, because for one thing, I’m missing everyone that I have come across in my life that I can’t see at the moment, and that’s enough to make someone sad! *laughs* But I told him that I choose to be happy…and so whenever there are times that I feel some negative emotions, I juss think of those things that can make me happy. Because I don’t believe in being fake, no?! And so I don’t ever be fake if I can help it, and so it’s like this…even though I could be sad, there is always a reason why I can also be happy. So I choose to juss think of those things that make me happy. Yeah, given, I am only human (o0O0oO…it’s already late now, and I need to go to sleep, Achalu came over and we were talking and then my cousin came over and he joined our conversation, hooked me and Achalu up with movies and then la-dee-da-dee-da and so yeah, let me write this really quick and then I gosta make my way to my bed and get my beauty rest, ya?! *laughs*) so there are times where I am also overwhelmed by my negative feelings and I feel like I am juss so sad, I always tell myself, that if I can’t find a reason to smile any longer, then that is when I have lost, and I don’t ever wanna loose, so I juss find some way to release my negative energy…hence the jogging…and working out…it’s like that kasi…I’ll go jogging so that I can use my negative energy in that way…and I won’t have to keep it all in…and then I have those awesome people who can see past my smiles (even though I am smiling for realz, man!) and actually see that I’m going through something not good…and then they can always make me smile…

So I really wanted to go to the city again this weekend…I really needed to juss loose myself in crazy madness and juss go at it, but then it was ruined because we have this humiliation tradition here in this school and that’s called “P.E. night” and it’s juss horrible like whoa, and my class wants to practice for it SATURDAY NIGHT?! Oh okay…so yeah, given, we haven’t practiced before and we need too, but come on now! Saturday night?! What is that…I wanted to go to the city…why couldn’t we have juss practice on Sunday or something…not on a Saturday night!! I guess I can still be in the city Friday night…and I like it better that way, but I need my whole day Saturday to yeah…oh well, maybe it’s good now that I don’t have to go there all the time…but it’s not like I even go all the time, I had stopped for a long time, and now it’s not even that bad, man! So don’t look or judge me…I’m actually laughing and having fun and not stressed out over school for once, and I need to take a break from school…it’s getting way to much, the teachers are making it way to much and I jusss wanna get it over and done with already, man! Oh well….

 I wanna eat pizza. Yeah, I know that’s pretty random, but my friend Matt told me that my cousin was in Yellow Cab….with two girls…and when Achalu came over he said that he saw Eddie too…my goodness, why do these people thing that they have to report to me my cousin’s whereabouts?! *laughs* well, I can understand Achalu telling me…but yeah the other people…(jajaja…Matt, don’t get me wrong, I still love you! *laughs)…and my cousin came here and explained to me as well why he was at Yellow Cab…but now I wanna go to Yellow Cab and get me some pizza! *laughs* I want me some crazy bread from Little Ceasar’s too! *laughs* yeah, I miss it.

Well, I know that this is really short, but I really gotta go now…I’m getting really, super, duper tired now. (And JA! Achalu DID go to sleep! He told me that he was gonna stay up and juss study! But when Eddie left, I saw that his light was off…oh well, I knew that he was tired, I’m glad that he went to sleep for a bit…) And it’s my turn to call it a night. Goodnight and sweetdreams! I miss you all so much and I can’t wait to see you all again. Lubshoo muchoness!!

*hugs and kisses*

“Never regret anything that made you smile.”

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