How do you find someone?!

Okay...i need your help. I'm trying to look for someone...but i can't find him...is there anyway that i can find him?!

I have no school for already two days...it is flooding and raining like whoa now...but i can't stay in the house any longer...i am dying of boredom!!!! so that is what is happening with me. i miss everyone so much...

PRISON BREAK...watch it...there is a REALLY hot HOTTIE there...like yummy hottie!!!! it's s TV Show...juss watch it...you know that i dont' ususally get myself hooked up on to those series, but this one i couldnt resist...you'll see why...not only kasi of the hottie...but juss kasi i like those kind of story lines and plots...juss watch it...

what else...oh Eddie's birthday is coming up...what shall we do for him?!?!?! OHOHOHOH! i'm going to a concert... but SHHH...i'll tell you which one AFTER the fact...lets juss hope that this rain lets up so that i can actually get to manila without drowning (God forbid!!!)! But i'm swear that will be exciting...this thursday...then my room mates will be leaving me ALONE IN THE ROOM for the rest of the weekend kasi they have to attend a funeral in Cagayan...thats a plane ride away...i HATE being by myself...and if there is a black out...i won't live...but we'll see how that goes...

what else has happened?! SO much to say...! I need to save SOME stories for when i get home...oh yeah, and that's the thing...i don't know if should go home this christmas or in March...which one...if i go home in March i think i might be able to stay for 2 1/2 weeks...but i come home for christmas i have to leave on Dec 31 to be here on the 2nd of January, that's when class starts...then again...who needs to go to class?!?! naw...i don't know...i have to find out soon...so what do you all think?! Oh and if i come home for christmas...it will only be aroudn 1 1/2 weeks...so uhm...iono...maybe i'll juss stay here and NOT GO HOME...but i don't want that to be an option.

Hm...what else can i juss say in the passing?! uhm...i met someone...actually i met a lot of someones...jejeje...but hm...naw...i won't say that one yet...uhm...i think i want to stop writing now...but i juss want all of you to know that i miss you muchoness...take care, and don't forget me...but HAVE FUN...like me...damn, i sure do miss my summer break!!!!!

Bamboo, Hale, Kamikazi...look them up...Bamboo is awesome...Champ on Hale is CUTE and Kamikazi...FIRST DAY HIGH...what more can i say...jejeje...i don't know if you'll understand that one...oh yeah...and the TV series Sa Piling Mo...so damn addicting!!!

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Hello...

Oh my goodness! i have this teacher..and he is always saying HELLO!!!! i mean...like to get our attention...you should juss hear him...its funny but then after awhile it gets really old!!! and then i'm juss like SHUT UP!!! jejeje...yeah right! can you even see me doing that?!

okay...so what am i doing here again the second day in a row going online...my goodness...now THAT is a luxury...:) well me and my friend/roommate have decided to further our learning of the guitar and become pro's at it...and so here i am ATTEMPTING to get guitar tabs..but is this working?! NOPE! this place is so slow...so now i'm trying to get SMART broadband on my laptop...but my goodness! it's SO expensive...but then it's sorta hard for me to function without direct access to the internet...yes i know...i'm acting like a spoiled brat...but seriousness...YOU TRY IT! especially with all the reseach that i have to do...and this dial-up connection...okay, i have to admit that this particular place that i'm at right now...(jem it's our cousins place...near the restuarant...you remember now?! :) ) isn't all that bad...only like 5 minutes for a page to upload...unlike the other places...grrr...so hard to get used too!!!

but yeah...i walk out of the house and i'm underneath a waterfall...it's raining pretty hard here...so much sadness i am...it's suppose to be hot and sunny summer...but no, i am not in california no more...it is more like hot, dry, and wet at the same time...and yes it is possible...

oh my goodness! i need to tell you this...the spiders here are as big as...uhm...BIG!!! they are huge..okay, so here i am sitting on my bed and my room mate is sitting on her sister's bed...and her sister's bed is against a window, and we are playing jyn and eddie's guitar's and then i see something catch my eye...its a round white thing as big as a quarter right?! and so i was like "joy, what is that?!" she looks at it and says it's a HUGE spider! i was like whatever...it's dark outside right...and member i odn't like dark windows...but i go closer to see this spider...and the white round thing happens to be the eggs that it's guarding and the spider was as big as my hand...and it's wasn't a skinny daddy long legs either...it was a thick, huge hairy black ugly thing!!!! it took picture of it...and then here comes a ALBINO lizzard...at least it was really white it was see through...and chases the spider...that thing has some guts...yeah...i hate it...but hey...i'm gonna be optimistic...it was outside the window..now if it was INSIDE...it would be a whole different story..jeje...

you know whats pretty interesting to do? dance in the rain...i really don't like rain...it makes my hair wet...and when my hair is wet i feel cold...but then since i have to live the fact that it rains a lot here...hey might as well be happy and do something good about it, right?! so i dance in the rain...pretty fun...you should try it. jejeje...:)

well, i guess i need to go now...print out the tabs that i do have...and stuff...well...dont' be strangers now...and keep in touch...if you guys want my number here is...

011639194435444

at least that is how you dial it...text me...jejeje...my goodness...i HATE texting...but then that is how they do it here...gosta get used to it...if that number doesn't work...feel free to ask my brother...(right 'rara?! :) i LOVE you!!! :) )

here i go again, sayin that i need to go...but i'm still writing...when will i ever learn!!! jejeje...

take care all...i miss you...and i love you SOOOO much!!!

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Another week is starting.

my favorite days here are fridays...then comes saturdays...and then sundays are a not have...i dont' really like sundays kasi that means i have school the next day! school here is extra long...and i'm serious you people out there, there are NO eye-candy here...okay...well maybe there are 2 but they aren't all that great! jejeje...but i guess i should stop looking for one...i'll only let my self down all the time...jeejjeje....

i'm sad...my family is gone now....good bye auntie and family and lissa...i miss you guys a lot..i'm sorta sad that i didn't get to say bye to one of my other family members...but maybe one day i'll be able to see them again...it's like i've been here forever, and then not forever...i can't make up my mind ...jeje...but yeah...

i miss everyone so much...pres, i miss you and the babies so much...i thought that i would mention that...since i think about you guys all the time...i regret not seeing laylay grow up and watch her "firsts" in her life...and i regret not being there to play with rose...and i miss talking to you! i miss you so much! so if you are reading this...yes i miss you

to everyone else...yes...i miss you all so much..i'm thinking about all my friends back at home all the time...but don't worry about me...im sure that you all are having much funness without me, and i'm having a lot of fun here too...i alreayd have a lot of stories to tell you...a lot...so much funniness we will be laughing for DAYS...and i'm f'realz!

well...this was juss a blah-blah blog thingy...but i juss wanted to let you all know I LOVE YOU!

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okay...so now i am here in the great motherland of the philippines...and i am greatly shocked and annoyed with the slow internet access! oh my goodness...and i thought that wireless would help more...my mom got me a awesome webcam...but i don't know if i can even use it! this connection whatever is SO slow! i'm going insane...but you know what?! it's all good...i can live...and that is all that matters right?!

i am happy here...i reallly am...other than the fact that i really extremely miss everyone back at home...i keep thinking of "what if's"...but you know...in all seriousness...i feel like i wasn't going anywhere when i was home. i felt traped sorta...so i had to get away...and man oh man...it's GREAT! i don't live in the dorm anymore...that would juss KILL me...i stay at faculty housing...with Jyn and Joy...for those of you who don't know...Jyn is Eddie's girlfriend and Joy is her sister...i love them both...they are great, and we have FUN FUN FUN times! yep yep yep!

It's so freaking hot here! and it's rainy season...for those of you who know me...i HATE rain...except if i feel like crying...then no one can tell...ohohohohoh! you should see the little kittens her...they are SO cute...jejeje...change of topic really fast for a second...but as i was saying...so freaking hot here...! but i'm getting used to it...it's not as bad as it use to be when i first got here....so that is always a good thing...

i went to a wedding this past weekend...missed TWO days of school...but oh well...so shoot me. :) the wedding was LONG...,remind me...when i get married...RUN down the aisle...vows...kiss....then PARTY ALL NIGHT LONG! jejeje...well not ALL night...jejeje...this wedding was TERIBLELY LONG! like the ceremony itself was THREE hours! NO DANCING...and it was LONG LONG LONG! but hey...there was new people to meet! :) also it was like 9 hours away from school...so we hadr to leave RIGHT after the wedding to go back to school...trust me i was soooooo tired the next day. i'm a light sleeper...so therefore i didn't get ANY sleep...so story...and it's juss another story that i will tell you when i get home.

i have class in 45 minutes...and i wanna wash my body before i go to class..i swear i rinse my body at least 5 times a day...but i will grow my hair out...i will NOT cut it! jejeje...i like long hair...my goodness these kitties are SO cute!!!

sucks for me...no eye candy for me YET...jejeje...got that i said YET! i'm stil looking...and eye candy for me is NOT boyfriend so don't even think about that one! jejeje...but yeah...

well...i love you everyone...keep in touch...oh and for some reason my hotmail account is going wackofied....so i dont' know when i'll be able to check that...but i still like checking that one rather than my myspace...but oh well...you gotta love myspace!

i love you all!

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Laterz yo'

wrong choice or not...i'm leaving...keep in touch please...i'll miss all of you SO much...ALL of you...

address:

c/o Adventist Universtiy of the Philippines
P.O. Box #1834
1099 Manila Philippines

i'll post my cell number when i get there...although, i know it's long distance..but oh well...

i love you

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Last Night.

last night was another night full of goodbyes for me. so sad i know....but i remember the last time that i went to the philippines i found this one quote...something like...the longer you miss someone, the closer the day will come that you will see them again...or something like that...but i already miss everyone!

i like those movie nights in PUC! i think they are fun...it sucked that it was the same time as the volleyball game though, but then i sorta got to see both...was there for the volleyball..i was frustrated the whole time, but i know that the guys did their best...and that's all we ask for...then the movie...oh kay...i know those of you who have watched a movie with me..i am constantly asking..."why...why...why???" and all this sort of anoying thing...right brother?! jejejej....but then i get SO confused if i don't start in the beginning...and since i didn't start in the begining...oh wow was i ever confused...but then the movie reminded me of my cousin...since i know that he likes those kind of movies...i wonder how he is...oh well, i'll be seeing him before the week is up. :)

you know that one game that people tend to play, even if they don't want too?! the "what if..." game...yeah..i find myself playing that game a lot. what if this happened? what if that happened? what if i went back to PUC?! that's the one that is always entering my mind...i was having a converstation with my friend (sorta converstation at least) about that..and i think that i would have had awesomeness fun there! it would have been a LOT different than my first year i think...but all the same, more fun! jejeje...i think that if i was there...i wouldn't be going back to philippines...but people need to do what they gotta do...right?!

you know how you have those friends that you hit it off REALLY good with and for a long time you are the goodest (not a word...so tickle me! :)) friends...then things happen and you are still good friends, but you don't talk as much anymore? but you know that your still their friends? well...yeah...i was talking to such a friend like that last night. and wow...the reminising was funny! i don't think that she will ever read this...but still..i feel like mentioning it...but i remember all those times we went camping...sang our heads off...screamed a million times for the heck of it...and you know what? long time ago...she wrote me this poem that said that we will be sister's no matter what...i still have that poem...and juss talking to her made me realize...i'm SUPER glad that she is back in my life. i've missed her...but we have our own lives now...but she is still a "goodest" friend. :)

i have a lot of friends like that...they are like surprises you know...like they walk into your life...and you don't know how they will impact you, and then they do. and you never really say "goodbye" they then you juss go your separate ways...but there is always this bond that you will always have, you know...and at any given time they come around and you have the funnest time talking and reminising with each other again...i like lifes surprises...:) i makes your realize how far you've gone in life...at least it did when i talking to my friend...when we were little we would talk about everything and anything and write each other and call each other and everytime...she has always been there...going to PUC...near my home...she is on the volleyball team in PUC..i went to her games...supported her...and when it comes down to it...we're still close...:) makes me smile...jejejeje

well, i need to finish packing...what a hassel...so much to do...so little time...but i'm not complaining...jejeje...

"...before you go tommarow...juss love me today..."

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Less than a week, am i ready? sometimes, i dont' know if i'm making the right decision. i'm so confused...you know how they say when someone gets married, they get "cold feet" are they doing the right thing?! type of dealio...well, this is a major thing in my life, and am i doing the right thing?! what if it isn't? i'm scared...five years is a long time to be away from my life! philippines is different, really different, and i love the place...but no one understands...and no one will understand why i have to go! but that is not what i'm talking about right now...right now i'm talking about how

my heart is breaking. i'm a sucker when it comes to goodbye...and i can't do it. i make friends and it seems like i'm always saying goodbye to them! am i running away, or am i going away? is there a difference? i need to get away...but is it for the right reasons? i dont' wanna do nursing...so why am i do it? is it the last thing? im being forced...am i happy, what am i talking about...i'm going now.

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