Happy Birthday, Presmarie!!

Well, this is gonna be a really quick blog, kasi I have barely anytime to write, but I juss wanted to let everyone out there who actually reads my blogs that it's my cousin's birthday tomorrow…and I juss want to let the whole world [well, those who read this *laughs*] that I love her and that I hope that she has the greatest birthday ever. Her name is Presmarie, and she is in my top friends for those of you who want to wish her a happy birthday. *laughs*…and Pres, if you are reading this…Happy Birthday, Insan…I miss you and love you so much…and I wish that I were at your place right now celebrating…well I wish that I were there "tomorrow" since that is when it's going to technically be your birthday…but yeah, you know what I mean. *smiles* big hugs to you…

So today I spend nearly the whole day trying to finish my Organic Chemistry with Biochemistry Lecture take home exam…that was some hard stuff there! I hate it…and I'm still not finish. I'm actually online so that I can find some of the answer still…ugh…I'm not sure why I need this for Psychology…I really don't think the people that imma work with gonna really care about organic chemistry with biochemistry stuff…well, maybe they might. *shugs shoulders* who knows?! I won't know…kasi I doubt that I'mma remember all this stuff anyways…I was at my friends place doing my homework though, kasi I heard that he's good with this stuff…he read my book, man! So that he can understand it all! Wow…that's what friends are for…! There when you need help, ya?!

I wish that we didn't have class tomorrow…I'm so not looking forward to waking up again at 6.am…fully knowing that the teacher is going to be late anyways…but I juss can't be late…it's like it's permanently etched in my DNA that I have to on-time for things…maybe that's why I like spontaneous stuff because then you don't have to late or early, no?! You're juss…juss…*laughs* make any sense?! Yeah, I never said that I always make sense…kasi I doesn't make sense in my mind. *laughs* I don't understand why the teachers can't be more on time though! I mean, hello?! It's their job, yah?! So, why can't they be on time or early…I was always early when I was teaching at home…oh well…that's me though…

Goodness, I do miss my family something really bad. I so can't wait to see them again. It really drags if you are here for the summer…it really really really drags a lot and that really sucks a lot. But then I juss wanna see my family again. I miss them a lot.

Ugh…my hair is wet and it's leaking all over the place. Yeah, I love long hair and stuff…but then it gets your clothes all wet…and in my case since I'm wearing a tube top…it's getting my back all wet. *laughs* oh okay…I'm not complaining…I'm juss stating a fact…with maybe a little complaining up there somewhere…I really need to get myself a hair dryer…but then it's so pointless since my hair really doesn't take that long to dry…but the process is so uncomfortable…*laughs* but I think short hair tickles your neck…and I didn't like that at all since I'm really ticklish! *laughs* oh well….my hair will be dry soon….

Well, I best go now…maybe this wasn't as short as I thought it would be. *laughs* but you KNOW that if I was talking all this, it would have been only like a quick minute or two. *laughs* Goodness, I miss you all so much at home…I really miss you all so very much…I love you all too!!! Take care, ya?!

*hugs and kisses*

"I don't wanna lose you, I can't never make it alone. Cause I am a [wo]man who will fight for your honor, I'll be the hero[ine] that you're dreaming of….we did it all for the glory of love."

And one more time okay?!.... "HAPPY [early] BIRTHDAY PRESMARIE!!! I MISS YOU SOOOOO MUCH!!! SO VERY MUCH!!!! AND I LOVE YOU LOTSA!!"

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"About Me"

It took forever for me to write this...so I thought to save this "about me" here...jejeje...juss for wateverz sake, no?! :)

"The face can speak of a thousand emotions, but it can easily mask what the heart truly feels. Don't be fooled, for the happiest face may be masking the most hurting heart." "Many of life's failures are men who did not realize how close they were to success when they gave up."  "You can close your eyes to reality, but you can't close your eyes to the memories." I can say all I want about who I am, however I am a complex person who is anything but simple. I can go all day trying to tell you who I am, but who has the time now to sit down and read what I'm going to write here anyways—not to say that I'm not an interesting person…I'm juss as interesting as the next person, maybe a little more since you may look at me and judge me…and you'll come to find out that I'm prolly nothing what you thought I was like. I'm loud and quiet. I'm shy and out-going. I'm prolly juss a little bit of who you think I am, but a little bit more of someone you didn't realize I am. I am who I am and I'm not going to change that for anybody or anything. "In the end its okay, if it's not okay then it's not the end." "Never assume." "If all you do is judge, you'll never have time to love." I don't like judging people, maybe that's because I don't like it when people judge me. I try not to "listen" to reputation…I have found out that you'll never know if it's true or not unless you give the person a chance to be your friend…but I'm not naive either. I hate it if anyone is mad, upset or disappointed in me. But I have learned that sometimes you have to go against those you love to live your own life. I know that everyone can die, but not every one can actually live. I'm not afraid to admit that I am wrong, that I don't know something or that I don't want to do something. I am afraid though of failure, disappointing those I love and Rape Street." Although I am FAR away from home, I am a family person. I love my daddy, my "madre," my sister, my brother, my dog and my cat. And I miss them more than words can ever say. I am a middle child, although I am always mistaken for being the eldest child or even the youngest. "Leaving someone behind means you only want the best for them even if it means swallowing the sad reality that…the best just isn't you." "Here's one sweet truth: someday, someone will walk into your life and make you realize why it never worked out with anyone else." "Many who wish for immortality find themselves not knowing what to do on a rainy Sunday afternoon." I love having fun. I'm always down to go and do something spontaneous. I live for "adventures." I hate having a daily schedule, because I feel like a machine programmed to go through life. I like those sudden moments of random spontaneous happenings. I realized that the more you say "no" to people and events, you'll never have those opportunities to meet someone who can change you life or do something that might make you realize that your eyes weren't as open as you thought they were. I hate confrontations, although I realize that they are necessary at times. I learned that you have to pick your fights carefully…and I learned that you have to let go of the past in order to move on. I learned that the only sure thing in life is change and that wishing gets you as far as "what if" questions do…nowhere. If you wanna make friends, be a friend first. If you wanna find love, love yourself first. If you wanna be someone, believe in yourself first. "Never make the same mistake twice because there are so many new ones to make…Try a different one each day!!" "The minute you think of giving up, think of the reason why you hold on for so long." "Some people say that you don't know what you have until you lose it, but it's not like that, you always know what you have; you just never thought you would lose it." I have learned to never take anything or anyone for granted. I love everyone. I believe that there are different levels of love, and I have come to realize that everyone I meet, a piece of me is with them always. And I hate goodbye's because of that. I can live my life always thinking what I could have done in the past, or I can live my life now so that I won't have any regrets in the future. I don't believe in regrets. Because the past happen for a reason and the past is what made me who I am today. I love grabbing every opportunity to make a memory. Saying yes to things that you would normally say no too (within your moral reason) allows you to go places you prolly never thought you would be. I don't believe in wasting time, but I do believe in taking your time to look around you. You would be surprised by the things that you see and the people you meet if you juss take the time to notice things and people around you. Life is too short to play it in fast forward. "Either you define the moment or the moment defines you." "When people are bound by a true relationship, no distance is too far, no mood is too bad, no time is too long and no difficult situation can tear them apart." "If you are embarrassed all the time, you will never have fun." I have learned to laugh at myself when I fall down, when I trip or when I make a "stupid" mistake. Laughing is contagious and makes people curious about who you are and they would want to find out more about you. I like smiling at people I walk by because you never know if that smile could be the one "good" thing that happened in that person's day. I think that people with a good sense of humor are the best people to be around because you find your face hurting from all the laugher that you have together. And that's a good hurt. Be careful of them shy, quiet ones…they have the best surprises! My goodness gracious! I talk a lot. ? "I can never say goodbye to those I have grown to love because in my heart is a memory and there you will always be." "One day farther from the last time you saw your loved one, is one day closer to when you will see them again." "In order to say 'hello,' you need first to say 'goodbye.'" Oh yeah, and one last thing… "A girl worth kissing, is not easily kissed."

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Happy Birthday Jynnylicious!!

w that she doesn't really go on myspace…she doesn't even have a myspace account…but I know that she goes on Eddie's myspace sometimes and checks things out…so on the slim chance that you're even gonna read this blog, Jynjyn…happy birthday…I wish for you the best and hope for you success. I love you.

T

oday, I went out with 10 other friends…8 guys and 2 other girls to go see Iron Man…I was kinda iffy on watching it since my sister said that she didn't really like it. It was an okay movie…I thought the beginning was sorta slow…and there was a part that reminded me of that Silver Surfer movie that came out a few months ago…but it was okay. I didn't really want it to be a planned event because if you plan things then for some reason, things juss get to complicated and stuff like that…so us 3 girls "went ahead" of the guys…but somehow that guys got to the theater first. *laughs* how did that work out!? But the company was good and it was fun.

I am really liking Avril's "Keep Holding On" song for the moment…Joy "gave" me that song one time when I was really really really down last year…and so when I hear it, it makes me think of that time when I was so down and Joyness "gave" that song to me…and yeah. Goodness, I really do miss my roomies a lot. I miss Jyn and Joy a lot…I know that they are happy to be home though…and I'm happy for them because it's hard to be away from home for a long time…and I'm sure that they are having fun with their friends and things like that…but I miss them. A lot.

I love my friends. I really love my friends…because I know that my friends can always make me smile…yeah, there are times where I'm juss smiling for show…but for the most part, I know that if ever I'm down there are friends that can keep me from going so down and deep into depression…and for that I love them. I think that it's possible to have an unlimited number of friends…and there are friends for different things…you know those friends who you can juss let it all out and act crazy with…those hang out friends…those music friends, sport friends…your school friends, church friends, neighbor friends, city friends, and my favorite--those rare all-round-type friends. Those friends who you know that you can be happy, sad, mad, with…those you can vent to, those you can trust with your secrets…those who know you strengths and weaknesses, your imperfect flaws and still accept you for who you are. Those friends who see past the smile that hides the pain…Those friends who tell you the truth even though they know that it might hurt you, but know that you would rather know the truth. Yeah, I love all my friends.

There was this one time where I was talking with Joy and I asked her how it was to faint. I have never fainted before and I was wondering what it was like to faint…like is it you juss going along your daily life and then you all of a sudden you are waking up, and your like "what the…!?" Or something like that…or do you know that you're going to faint…Joyness said that you can tell that you are going to faint. Like you know it because you start seeing static…her example was when you are channel surfing and you go to a channel that you don't have and you see that black and white million of dots like thingy…like that…and that was weird to me…really?! You really do see that?! You know what she also asked me…if I get hit, do I really see stars…you know like in the cartoon or something….yeah, for me no…and I have gotten hit by a Soft(whatever! It's SO not soft!)ball…a football…I've also gotten tackled…I've gotten my breath knocked out of me…or like if I set the volleyball wrong and I get hit in the face *laughs* (you know that happened to you too!!!) or even if someone spikes the ball hella hard and my face was the target…yeah, I've gotten hit…but no I don't see star…she said that she does…I don't know what I see really…I know that I experience pain like wow…but that's all really. Yeah, that was a random topic! *laughs*

I really wanna get a pet…like a furry pet…I'm seriously thinking of getting another cat…it's too lonely living alone…I do love my fish a lot…they are my "cherubs" but they don't really DO anything…and I hate it when the electricity goes off and I'm stuck here myself and I have to tell myself to breath all night or I might die! *laughs*…but it would be nice to have a kitty with me or something…I do want a puppy…but I would need to house train it and I'm always in and out of the house and stuff…and there is a puppy downstairs that I play with a lot…it really needs to be trained though…

Hm…I'm talking randomly now…and so I better get going now. Yeah, this blog was mainly to let everyone know that it's JynJyn's birthday…and that I miss her and her sister a lot. *laughs* and so yeah….anyways…yeah…imma go now…

I love you and miss you all so very much!

*hugs and kisses*

"Intelligence plus character is the goal of true education." –Dr. Martin Luther King, Jr.

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You're not alone...together we stand.

Rabbit, Rabbit everyone! It's a new month…a new day…so yeah…Do something new this month, ya?! *laughs* Aren't I in a such a good mood?! *smiles*

So yesterday was a pretty emotional day for me since my roomies left for Thailand…even though they stopped being my "roomies" a long time ago, since technically all last year they were only my "housemates" or what we liked to say "Next-wall neighbors"….they will still be my roomies. My goodness, I know that I have had some crazy times with those chicas and I am going to miss them so much. I remember when I first came here to the Philippines to be their roomies, I was so excited because I was already really good friends with JynJyn…and we had kept in touch the whole time year that I refused to come back to the Philippines after that first time, and when I realized that I was gonna come back here…she was telling me that their other roomie was moving out (Thank God for that because they had a horrible year…a huge tip for you people out there who are looking for a room/house mate…move in with someone that you get along with. And COMMUNICATION is a good key to remember, ya?!) and so they said that I could move in with them, since I had refused to move into the dorms again, that was a super big nightmare!...I also had an option to move in an apartment with other friends…but I moved in with Jyn and Joy…

Now Joyness, on the other hand…I thought she didn't care for me…as in she didn't care to be friends with me because the first year that I was here…we hung out, but she was sooo quiet, I guess you can say…I even went to her house in Thailand for a few weeks…but I got closer with her brother, and so I was kinda iffy if I should move in with them, because the room was small, and we would have to be all up in each other's personal space and stuff. But I remember the first week that I was there, Jyn and Eddie went to off somewhere for a wedding and so it was me and Joy that was stuck together…and you know for Philippines Independence day that was when I remember that me and Joyness finally clicked…and now, I count her as one of my closest friends. Her and Jyn…

Yesterday was so hectic…they weren't finished moving out of the other house. I had already moved out all my stuff…but their stuff was all still there…since they lived there for that past two weeks…and I was moving between both apartments…and yesterday was suppose to be the day that that house was suppose to be clean and we were suppose to give our key up. Anyways…the person that was suppose to give them a ride to the airport for them to go back to Thailand…got caught by the police being at an illegal event (them illegal cock fights…) so at the last minute they had to scramble to find someone to hook them up with a ride to the airport…and they found out and they were suppose to leave at 4:30pm…and the "old" place was a super big mess because they were packing up to go back home, and they were also moving some of their stuff to my place…ended up, they only got to pack and leave and I had to move the rest of the stuff back to my place…and that was a nightmare in itself because they have a LOT of stuff…no joke…all their stuff…literally fills up one room here and I'm thinking how did they find places for all their stuff before! Like literally…there is no room to even close the door because there is so much stuff! And yeah…when they left…yeah, Jyn cried…but I held my tears in until were gone…*tears*…and then Eddie had to go and do his homework…and so I started moving their stuff over to my house when all of a sudden a lot of the people here at my complex came and started to help me move the stuff over…the guys here took down stuff and set them back up at my place moved my refrigerator…and the kids cleaned up my house and the "moms" and older girls juss took over in moving the rest of the stuff…I guess they knew how sad I was so they took over and so yeah…I still have to rearrange things around and stuff…but my place is starting to look homey like now…so that's good.

Early, early, really early this morning, I get a phone call and from the first hello (and even though I thought I was still dreaming or something, or in spite I was still ¾ asleep) I was  I knew who it was…my sister. Oh goodness, I miss my sister so much and I love her sooooo very much. We talked for a long time about everything, and I'm super excited for her wedding. Oh my goodness, I am super super excited for her wedding like oh my goodness, I'm so excited for her wedding! *laughs* So you get my point?! *laughs* I can't wait to see her and hug her. Aww…juss thinking of her brings tears to my eyes. It's amazing how close I am to my sister and how much I really do trust her because I remember I use to always fight with her and "hate" her…but naw, I don't think that I would ever hate her. I couldn't ever hate her…when I was younger I was juss more uhm…we disagreed more and I hated that…*laughs* But now, I know that I can trust her more than anything. She is my sister, my blood, and even though she is getting married to a wonderful guy…she will still be my sister and my blood…always. Kuya Neal is so good for her…and I'm so happy for them two. My goodness, I'm so happy for them two…they make each other so happy. *laughs* Dare I say it makes me believe in true love?! Ha! *laughs*

So Jynjyn told me to read this book…it's fiction, but it was a fun book to read…not my style of books to read…but a "girlie-girl chick" book type of thing…and it was called Make Me a Match…or was it Find Me a Match?! Anyways, it was about this girl who had part gypsy in her and she supposedly had "special" powers…but it was her sister who had THE "special" power…juss by touching you she could hear The Name. The name of your one and only true love. Juss like that…The Name. As little girls, those two girls made a promise that the sister who could hear the name would not tell the other girl who her true love is…because they juss promised that to each other. Unless the girl wanted her sister to tell her, then the other sister could not tell at all. Anyways, the main girl was getting married to this guy…but the sister who could tell her who her true love was didn't want her too, because she knew that he wasn't for her…and stuff. Oh yeah, and the thing is the sister could only hear a name…so if you're guy happened to be a "John Smith" and there was millions of "John Smith" you had to find him on your own. Because the sister couldn't hear where they were…juss the name. Anyways…the sister broke her promise and told the sister who her true love was because she said that the name was fading and so her true love was going to die…or something like that…and so she wanted the girl to find him and tell him that he was going to die (oh yeah, she was a doctor). The girl didn't know what to do because she was getting married and she didn't wanna mess things up. I'm not gonna tell you the ending though…but my point is this. If you could find out who your "Named" one was…would you? Oh yeah, you had to believe in it too. In the book it said that it could work out with anyone…but there is a specific person for you. But if you did "fall in love" with someone else…it would work out, but I guess not as much as it would have if you here with your "true love"…but if you could…would you find out who your true love was? What did I say I would do?! Hm…I am a curious girl, and if I wasn't involved with a guy at the moment, I guess I would. *laughs* I'm a romantic after all *gasps::laughs* But I don't really know really…would I really?! I would be torn, because I would say yes, I would want to know…but then again, I don't really want to…hm…what about you?

Nothing exciting has been happening here all that much. I still hang out with boys a lot more that I do with the girls…but every so often I will go out with the girls…but I do hate shopping…it's boring and tiring to me…and it's a lot different here…the clothes here are made for people who are a LOT smaller hip-wise than me and breast-wise…so I hate shopping anyways…but hanging out is cool. So there are those few times where I will suck up my hate for shopping and hang out with the girls. Today, I'm gonna go out with guys again and juss hang out. I'm so sad that my good friend here is going home. I don't want him to because we're pretty close and we talk a lot and stuff…but he wants to go home for a year…boo to that! Oh well, I did that. *laughs*

So a few days ago…me and Joy were in the internet shop for a quick moment because I had to get stuff for my chemistry class…but I had to pee so badly, so I told Joy to watch my stuff…and one of the screens I had open was myspace because I was reading letters from there and stuff…when I came back Joy was looking at my friends page and I thought nothing of it…I was gone prolly like uhm..15 minutes since there is only one stall in the girls bathroom and there was a line. Anyways, when we get back home…I tell her that I have to start on my homework so I was gonna go to my apartment and I'd come back to the "old" apartment later…and she was like "I wanna come with you…" And I was like okay…because I though she was juss gonna read or look for a DVD at my place since I had all the DVDs at my place and stuff…and we juss don't like being alone (Jyn and Eddie were on a date…no they were in Manila then) so I thought she juss wanted to be in the same place…and I don't care if she was over. Anyways…so I put the USB in my laptop so I can get started on my homework and stuff…and she sits next to me with a big smile on her face…and I'm like "What?!" And she was like, "Nothing…" When I open my USB…she starts laughing…because she had saved pictures of guys on my USB…because she thought they were hot and she wanted the pictures so she juss saved it on my USB…and I juss started laughing. She makes me laugh. Oh goodness…Imma miss that chica…lotsa…

Well, nothing seriously out-of-the-ordinary happens really…juss the same ol' same ol' stuff that happens…hanging out with friends and all the happens there and stuff…Well, imma go now…

Cya all soon! *laughs* YAY!!! I love you and miss you all muchoness!!!

*hugs and kisses*                        

"You're not alone, together we stand, I'll be by your side, you know I'll take your hand. When it gets cold and it feels like the end, there's no place to go, you know I won't give in, no I won't give in. Keep holding on, you know I'll make it through, just stay strong, cause you know I'm here for you, I'm here for you. There's nothing you can say, nothing you can do, there's no other way when it comes to the truth. Keep holding on…yes you know I'll make it through, I'll make it through…" –Avril Lavigne (for you Joy.)

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