Hello my friends.

Typhoon storms are SO scary! On the 28^th of September, AUP and the surrounding towns were unfortunately hit by a typhoon storm! And let me tell you, that was something SCARY! That I really hope that I'll have to go through again! Okay, I was eating the night before and on the news they said that there was gonna be "bagio" (storm) and that we should stay indoors. And I'm like whatever! I've been through storms in the Philippinesalready, but my gosh! This was a storm like none other! No joke! They said the last time they had a storm this bad was 12 years ago! But worst, and I'm thinking WORST! And I thought that this one was BAD! Anyways, my housemaids had closed and locked all the windows in the house and I was like, what?! It's so hot! We need the windows open, but we (my room mates and I) left them close, and it was a good thing, because I woke up that Wednesday night and I started to hyperventilate because it was PITCH BLACK! At first I was like, is my eyes still closed?! It was SO dark….and then that's when I flipped! It was dark because the storm was happening and already the winds were 150 km/hour and they already knocked down the electricity poles….so there was no light. My room mates woke up, and they juss talked to me to breath and stuff, and then I calmed down…I had the light of my cell phone and I had a flashlight. I sleep next to a window and so does my other room mate Jyn…and the window's kept flying open and we kept getting wet, and the wind was really blowing and things were flying…we had to tie the windows down. Finally late the next day the storm passed by…and when Joy and I walked outside, it was SO sad!!!! Tree's had fallen down, poles where down, fences were gone…the CONCRETE BRIDGE here on campus was half gone…the signs that were up before were now down. Then I went outside of AUP, and I juss wanted to CRY! All the small stores and houses all along outside of AUP were GONE! The tree's were thrown all over the places, there were vehicles that were halfway down in mud…the river was high, there were children's bodies, there were animal bodies, there were the billboards that looked like they were grinded up and thrown randomly around the place…it was SO depressing! The electricity was down for a week, but there is still places that don't have electricity. What really sucked was that we have finals, and we didn't have electricity at all, and since they don't honor day light savings time, it gets dark at 5:pm…no kidding…and it gets DARK because there is NO LIGHT ANYWHERE! And after the storm it was HOT, but we couldn't turn on the fans.

Oh! You wanna know something sweet that my roomie JynJyn did for me. Okay, well, since there was no power, the first night I said that I was gonna go to sleep early, since there was a candle, and I said I wanted to sleep before the candle dies. Well, so I fall asleep, but I woke up when the candle died…for those of you who know me, I'm an EXTREMELY light sleeper, and for some reason I know when my light has been turned off, so when the candle died, I freaked out again, but this time I juss kept my eyes closed and told myself that blah, blah, blah…anyways, I heard noise again and I got scared but then I realized that my roomie JynJyn had also woken up because she set her alarm to wake her up…so that she can light another candle! So everytime the candle died she got up to light another. In the morning she told me that she set her alarm at 3 hour intervals to wake her up so that she can see if the candle was dead or still going. She said that she didn't want me to wake up to darkness…I LOVE my room mates. The next day we bought a HUMUNGOUS candle that lasted the rest of the week and we didn't have to get up to light it anymore. But damn…you all need to meet JynJyn…she is awesome…same with Joy, her sister…my friend and my other roomie. J

Anyways, we have our electricity now…thank goodness! And it's super hot, but that's okay. I'm here with Eddie right now at the internet shop getting information about a research project that we both have to do. But first I wanted to post up another blog since I haven't written in the blog thingy in a while. But yeah.

Did you all remember that I was my brother's birthday? And Chris's birthday too?! Well, I don't know if they read my blogs, HAPPY BIRTHDAY YOU TWO! Okay, BELATED…but know that I'm thinking about you two. I called my brother on his birthday, and I know that he went to my sister's house for his birthday, I'm so sad, I so wish that I could have gone with him. I want to see my sister and brother again. I miss them SO much…so would you all do me a favor, if any of you see them, give them a hug for me. Thanks…I really do miss them a lot. Mandope…I wanna go boating again!

Well, since it's finals, that means this semester is almost done…actually it practically is…we juss need to take our finals. Can you imagine that?! I only have one more semester, and then I'm going home! I can't wait! Hm…lets see…I think my plan is that I'm gonna be going home in March…I think I know the date…but for now, I'm gonna keep that a secret. I know that I wanna be home for Manang Val's wedding…so I think I'll be there until the first week of June. Maybe I'll celebrate an early birthday since my birthday here makes me depressed! But yeah, I really can't believe that the first semester is practically done. This school year has really gone by SO fast! But then again, this year is so much more funner then the first time that I came here…not that the first time was terrible, it juss wanted as fun.

Anyways, we're gonna have a 2 ½ week sembreak. I"ll be doing a week of prayer at a highschool somewhere with my CRT group. I think that's gonna be a lot of fun. Then the rest of the week, I'm gonna relax and take it easy…maybe I'll go to the beach and juss have fun. I REALLy want to play football and volleyball. Maybe that's what I'll do. I really miss that.

Oh!!! You know that second biggest mall in the world and the biggest mall in Asia is here in the Philippines! Guess what?! This group asked me to be a guest singer in their concert! But they want me to sing this half Japanese half English song…so I had to learn a new song, but my goodness…I'm so scared! But when I asked the guy who asked me to sing how he heard me sing, he said that he asked a few of his friends if they know anyone who can sing and they recommended me! And then he heard me sing. But then you know when I came here to the Philippines, I already told myself that I didn't want to sing for an audience. There is this thing that I'm a part of and it's called the Jesus Project. And for one program we did a girls band thingy…and I was the lead singer. I told them that I would rather play the piano, but they got me to sing instead, and then that is how the guy heard me sing. I'm pretty excited, but I'm really scared, but not trying to think how scared I am. I remember when I was younger my dream was to be a star singer…but that was all in the past, if this happened to me when I was younger, I would be so psyched…but it didn't, it's happening NOW! But hey…it's going to be an experience. And I'm excited. I wish you all were there though…*sigh* oh well….

I know that I mentioned this before, but I'm taking up the guitar. I'm slowly learning…I think I sound okay now. But my CRT group wants me to play in FRONT OF PEOPLE! My gosh, I think I'm traumatized too! And "you" know why! Jejeje…good times…naw…it's kasi I use to play guitar when I was younger…well sorta…and then I played in front of my friends and they laughed…but all in fun, in fun…jejeje…so I'm juss jowking…but do you remember that (Es, Leah?!?! Jejejejeje…..) At least my fingers aren't hurting anymore. But I'm still wanting to grow my nails out. But that is a "no-no"…you know. J

You know people are always asking me, "Which one are you scared of the most? Cockroach or spider…?!" how am I suppose to answer that question! Okay…Jem, you remember I use to go out "exploring" with Baili Dru outside and collect spiders and bugs and spider eggs…and "roly-poly" soup?! So I'm really not scared of bugs…but then I come here and then BAM their bugs here are like on steroids or something! Their huge! And did you know that cockroaches FLY! Juss the other day I walked out of my room and there right above our door was this spider bigger than my hand…and these mama's are not those little daddy long legged babies…but they are thick, hairy, brown and         U-G-L-Y!! But this spider wasn't alone, nope it wasn't it had it's egg nest with it! And it wasn't small either…it's was nearly as big as it's mama! My gosh…im swear if that thing comes in the room, I juss might juss go home! My goodness…try taking a bath with one of those in the bathroom!!! It's juss like living your worst nightmare! They are SO scary! I'm so not joking! You juss ask Eddie! He has some stories to tell you about them big uglies! Oh…I was trying to explain to my roomie about Roly-polies…those cute little bugs that curl up on a ball and roll around if you touch it…jejeje…J

"Sometimes you have to put walls up around you…not to keep people out…but to see who cares enough to break them down just to be with you…."

"Find a person who wants to kiss your lips everyday, who lifts and hugs you when your jealous, who patiently keeps silent when your mad, who fixes your hair just to see your face and the one who wants to have lunch with you with his family…the one who shares his drinks with you, who squeezes your hand together when you squeeze his and the one who wants to cut work just to have a date with you. Find someone who plans and imagines his future with you seven years from now (I don't know about that one!!!) and when you find him, never let him go…"

"Time alone can prove the worth of a person, as time goes by we lose the false ones and keep the best! Because true people stay when all the rest are gone!"

"Love is running to someone's arms, colliding with someone's heart and exploding into someone's soul."

"I could be a PAPER, you can write your filings, scribble your anger, use me to absorb your tears, but don't throw me after use, because when you feel cold, I'll burn myself to warm you."

"Do you know why there are people who had a bad experience in love, but shows like nothing happened? They never show you they cry, simply because there are tears in the heart that never reaches the eyes…"

"The face can speak of a thousand emotions, but it can easily mask what the heart truly feels. Don't be fooled, for the 'happiest face may be masking the most hurting heart.'"

"Don't waste your time regretting all your wrongs. Know that in the end, you'll get what your heart longs. Try not to risk it all, don't stumble, don't fall. Hold your head high, don't be afraid to say 'goodbye'. Stay true and be you. Do everything there is to do. Live life to the fullest and never look back. There is a reason for the future and a reason for the past. Love til it hurts, laugh til u cry and when your life flashes before you die, be happy for what you've done, be happy for what you've overcome and most of all be proud of what you had become."

"You will never know true happiness until you have truly loved, and you will never understand what pain really is until you have lost it."

"When God leads you to the edge of a cliff, trust Him fully and let go. Coz only one of two things will happen: either He will catch you when you fall or He will teach you how to fly."

There, juss wanted to share with you some of the text forwards that I get on a daily basis…I'm so swear, there are people here that has NEVER TALKED on their phone…juss always texting texting naman!!! J Some are cute like those ones…but there are some texts that are like "WHAT THE HECK!?!" oh well…that's life here in the Philippines…

Well, I miss you all…but I need to go and finish my research now! Thanx for all the letters and e-mails…I love you all!!

('Rara..I hope that you're having fun!!!)

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I miss you.

I don't know how i have time to say all i have to say...lets see...bullets...lets try that...:) juss something new you know!

1) PRAY PRAY PRAY!!!!! The three little kitties that were born in our "garage" are only a few weeks old and the mommy died...so i've been busting my ass to feed them as much as i can...they are weak and i really have to force them to eat! i'm so sad...i love them so much...jejeje...you know me, i get attached to easily! Pray that they live. If they die, im so swear a part of me will die....no joke...i love to easily...Eddie's been a great help...he comes to help me as much as he can...when he's not at the clinic (his girlfriend is there)

2) Denge or was it Dange...i think it was Denge..it's sorta like malaria, it spreads through the misquitoe and we all know how common those pests are here! but it's going around! Jyn, eddies' girlfriend was admitted in the clinic because she was having a fever of 40 C degree's! oh okay...i know i read fairinghight...whoa...HOW DO YOU SPELL THAT WORD...but according to my phone...jejeje...unit converstion...that would be 104 degrees...not that is CRAZY!!! get this its SO hot outside, but she is shivering like there is no tommarow! :) but a few of my friends were admited...actually at 5:30 i'm gonna go to the clinic to visit them...pray that I don't get it!

3) Chemistry...it's killing me...i have TWO take home TESTS in one day....and i'm suppose to be trying to figure all this out...but i don't understand any of it! i don't care for chemistry in the first place!!! pray that i passed...( oh hey...i'm doing good in physics...that's always good!)

4) does anyone have yahoo messenger? please add me...it's aziangirl_pinay...i've tried to go on MSN...but then for some reason the philippines don't really believe in it...and AIM is out of the question...please i wanna talk to some of you...i miss you!!!

5) don't they all say that if you do something different with your hair then your ready for new change...well, we all know that my sister (and friend) cut my hair last christmas the shortest it has been since who knows when...but last night me and my other room mate that isn't in the hospitol, Joy, were SO bored...we dyed my hair! jejeje...oh my gosh...chemicals i che's hair i know..but it's cut...well, i take that back, i sorta dyed it...it's streaked with burgandy and red colors...jejeje...i like it....But i'm still planning to grow my hair out and leave it LONG!!! :) jejeje...that's for sure!

6) my gosh...i need to go!....and i thought time was so slow...but really in reality...it's not slow or fast it's juss consistent!!! but i sorta need to go..i love you all so much, and i miss you LOTS!!! thanks for your prayers, and love....and PLEASE DON'T FORGET ME!!!

hugs and kiss....

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Would you rather...?!

...have someone who completes you...OR someone who loves you completely?!

my answer!? i would rather have someone who completes me...kasi your life is like a puzzle right?! and there is a piece that is missing without that person...and that person would complete me...therefore that person loves me diba?! well, i would hope that they do...afterall they complete me...aww...such love chuva! jejeje...

school has but such business and i think that i juss wanna lay on the groud and look up at the clouds or go star gazing...right now that sould really relaxing. two weeks ago we had out midterms...KILLED ME! then last week we had week of prayer...so all our classes were 45 mins in advance...for example...my 7:30AM class was at 6:45am...crazy...yeah...i didn't get much sleep...and then this club that i joined...i'm such a busy busy bumble bee! jejeje (leah, mishu!) oh yeah...i haven't finished yet...next week is our pre-finals! so crazy! i think i'm gonna die with my schedule like this...

at least for the rest of the week i don't have school kasi we have ingathering...in other words...we have to go places to BEG MONEY FOR THE SCHOOL! how much embarrassment is THAT?! uhg...i think i'll juss be paying money out of my own  pocket...but then that leaves me a LONG weekend...and do i have plans?! hm...let me think...yep yep yep! it was my roomie's birthday yesterday...and we celebrated...but this weekend...we'll be going to the city to do what?! hm...dance?! and...you know...JEJEJE...fun fun fun!!!:) "disco disco naman!" jejeje...!

oh...i think that i wanna highlight my hair...i think that i'm gonna too...my new found cousin is gonna hook me up! i think that it's my time to do something drastic...you think? i mean, i did read in all those magazines that when a lady does something to change her apperence, that means she is changing her appreaence...jejeje...and her life. i think that i've changed...well, i know that i've changed...but don't worry...inside me, i'm still that lil girl who still has ADHD! jejeje...:) juss a little bit more i think.

i still miss my family so much! my sister, and brother...everyone...i think i'd be much more happier if i could talk to them EVERYDAY...i'm such a home person. there are so many things that i'm craving right now...hm...maybe i should list them...

burito truck!!!
chinese food
mexican food
gummy bears
Slim Jim
Beef Jerky
Razzmatazz with energy from Jamba Juice
country fried steak
IHOP
blueberries with applesauce
Peach Rings
white Necterine (is that how you spell it?!)

oh what am i doing?! i'm juss making myself miss home more!

i LOVE chow king...beef wonton noodles...yummy! and chicken strips...and i have a new favorite...bananaque...stuff is SO good! yep yep yep! at least we still have starbucks here...that keeps me going.

Oh gosh...Eddie's gonna kill me! i have to go meet up with him!!!!

mishu all! and i LOVE LOVE LOVE YOU ALL!!!!!

oh and i think i wanna change my nickname...you will NOT believe how many "che" and "cha" there are here...it's sooooo confusing...juss call me Char...or Princess still works! jejeje. :) the canadians call me Char...so yeah..*shrugs shoulders*

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Screaming girls at 3 in the morning!

okay...juss humor for a moment okay...look at your hand...you see how big that is...yeah...okay, now look at your middle finger from the tip of if to the middle of your palm...you got that...?! okay, i know that they may be different sizes from each other...but i'm going by MY hand...it may be a little smaller than your's...but juss humor me..okay?! now the size of your hand...picture that as a BIG HAIRY SPIDER, BROWN AND HUGE!...and the tip of your middle finger to your middle of your palm...yeah...that would be the size of a cockroach! i'm sooo not exagerating! juss ask the other girls in my room! okay..and what were we doing at 3 in the morning...jejeje...should i tell you?! nah...maybe when i come home...but yeah...3 in the morning with those insects in my room...oh...and there was also a LITTLE bit SMALLER spider then the huge one ON MY BEd!!! and the cockroach was FLYING! did you even KNOW THOSE dAMN THINGS FLY!?! but yes...they DO fly! so there we were, in our pj's...standing on my roomies bed in the corner of the room with pillows as our only protection...covering our mouths...trying so hard not to scream as the spiders are crawling all over the room on the walls on the bed and the cockroah FLYING!!! i swear i was gonna die! but look at me...i'm still alive and welll...and i got myself a funny story....it's one of those stories that you have to cry and scream and feel like your dying while it's happeneing and laugh at it later...it took us an HOUR to finnaly get the guts to do something...my goodness...we slept in. yep we did...or wait...did we EVEN SLEEP! my gosh!

i have been having so much fun here! juss on friday i went with Eddie to Manila to get my quarinteen for my student visa...i'm a illegal alien here! my goodness! ejeje...then we went to this AWESOME MALL Glorietta Mall...and it's the best...had some Chow King...had guys stalk me...asking me if Eddie was my boyfriend...I THINK NOT!...and juss trying to HOLD MY HAND! my gosh...should i be flattered or what! i dont' know what it is...i try not to act different from other filippino's...and i'm pretty good at it too...most of the times, you can't tell i'm a foreigner, then i speak Tagalog, and i have an am-accent...oh well...but you know those camera phones?! yeah..those are annoying...it's like my own little paparazi...im swear! and there's nothing i can do about it! oh gosh...i feel so vain for saying all that! okay...change of subjects...!

I joined a group called CrossRoads...and who should be in the group but my EX CRUSH! but seriously i did NOT join kasi of him...i didn't even know that he was in the group/club...everyone thinks that i'm a leader here...raise your hand if you think if i'm a leader...yep, that's what i thought...i'm more of a dependent person...jejeje...but anyways...this group/club is like a leader club chuvaness....(my new word Chuva...get over it!! jejeje) i'm really shy...i can talk the language...but my am-accent is so strong! it's so obvious i'm english speaking! oh well...we go on a lot of road trips! so much fun...but we also spreak the word of God...that is A LOT of fun! The last place we went was to Quezon...dont' ask...it's in the philippines...that's all i know...:) and that was an adventure...we had to sleep on CEMENT FLOORS! there were 13 of us! and only 3 blankets...mine was one...one of the guys was like saying that he couldn't sleep on the cement so we took down ping-pong tables and placed them on the ground and slept on them...believe it or not, with the right people...it was an adventure...so much fun...i couldn't go to sleep we were laughing so much! and the next day early in the morning we had to teach seperate classes...!!!:)  goodness...how can i possibly tell all what i want at this moment! should i try, or juss try to be mysterious and tell you only part....jejeje...okay i'll be annoying and juss tell you the rest at home!!! jajajaja!!!! :)

well, let me juss take the time to thank those of you who comment my blogs...it's nice to know that people read these babbling of mine. :)

OH MY GOSH! i love manila...they have a boardwalk there...it's great...and at night! oh gosh...i'm still good. im swear! :)

well...my friends are waiting for me to finish this...so i best be one my way. I miss you all though...my friends and family at home...if everyone can do me a favor...can you PLEASE tell my brother to contact me...i think he forget...and my heart is torn to pieces juss thinking of it...so thanx :) maybe you can jog him memory that he has a sister far away that misses him. thanx. :)

hugs and kisses to EVERYONE...that includes you my dear Es. :)


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How do you find someone?!

Okay...i need your help. I'm trying to look for someone...but i can't find him...is there anyway that i can find him?!

I have no school for already two days...it is flooding and raining like whoa now...but i can't stay in the house any longer...i am dying of boredom!!!! so that is what is happening with me. i miss everyone so much...

PRISON BREAK...watch it...there is a REALLY hot HOTTIE there...like yummy hottie!!!! it's s TV Show...juss watch it...you know that i dont' ususally get myself hooked up on to those series, but this one i couldnt resist...you'll see why...not only kasi of the hottie...but juss kasi i like those kind of story lines and plots...juss watch it...

what else...oh Eddie's birthday is coming up...what shall we do for him?!?!?! OHOHOHOH! i'm going to a concert... but SHHH...i'll tell you which one AFTER the fact...lets juss hope that this rain lets up so that i can actually get to manila without drowning (God forbid!!!)! But i'm swear that will be exciting...this thursday...then my room mates will be leaving me ALONE IN THE ROOM for the rest of the weekend kasi they have to attend a funeral in Cagayan...thats a plane ride away...i HATE being by myself...and if there is a black out...i won't live...but we'll see how that goes...

what else has happened?! SO much to say...! I need to save SOME stories for when i get home...oh yeah, and that's the thing...i don't know if should go home this christmas or in March...which one...if i go home in March i think i might be able to stay for 2 1/2 weeks...but i come home for christmas i have to leave on Dec 31 to be here on the 2nd of January, that's when class starts...then again...who needs to go to class?!?! naw...i don't know...i have to find out soon...so what do you all think?! Oh and if i come home for christmas...it will only be aroudn 1 1/2 weeks...so uhm...iono...maybe i'll juss stay here and NOT GO HOME...but i don't want that to be an option.

Hm...what else can i juss say in the passing?! uhm...i met someone...actually i met a lot of someones...jejeje...but hm...naw...i won't say that one yet...uhm...i think i want to stop writing now...but i juss want all of you to know that i miss you muchoness...take care, and don't forget me...but HAVE FUN...like me...damn, i sure do miss my summer break!!!!!

Bamboo, Hale, Kamikazi...look them up...Bamboo is awesome...Champ on Hale is CUTE and Kamikazi...FIRST DAY HIGH...what more can i say...jejeje...i don't know if you'll understand that one...oh yeah...and the TV series Sa Piling Mo...so damn addicting!!!

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Hello...

Oh my goodness! i have this teacher..and he is always saying HELLO!!!! i mean...like to get our attention...you should juss hear him...its funny but then after awhile it gets really old!!! and then i'm juss like SHUT UP!!! jejeje...yeah right! can you even see me doing that?!

okay...so what am i doing here again the second day in a row going online...my goodness...now THAT is a luxury...:) well me and my friend/roommate have decided to further our learning of the guitar and become pro's at it...and so here i am ATTEMPTING to get guitar tabs..but is this working?! NOPE! this place is so slow...so now i'm trying to get SMART broadband on my laptop...but my goodness! it's SO expensive...but then it's sorta hard for me to function without direct access to the internet...yes i know...i'm acting like a spoiled brat...but seriousness...YOU TRY IT! especially with all the reseach that i have to do...and this dial-up connection...okay, i have to admit that this particular place that i'm at right now...(jem it's our cousins place...near the restuarant...you remember now?! :) ) isn't all that bad...only like 5 minutes for a page to upload...unlike the other places...grrr...so hard to get used too!!!

but yeah...i walk out of the house and i'm underneath a waterfall...it's raining pretty hard here...so much sadness i am...it's suppose to be hot and sunny summer...but no, i am not in california no more...it is more like hot, dry, and wet at the same time...and yes it is possible...

oh my goodness! i need to tell you this...the spiders here are as big as...uhm...BIG!!! they are huge..okay, so here i am sitting on my bed and my room mate is sitting on her sister's bed...and her sister's bed is against a window, and we are playing jyn and eddie's guitar's and then i see something catch my eye...its a round white thing as big as a quarter right?! and so i was like "joy, what is that?!" she looks at it and says it's a HUGE spider! i was like whatever...it's dark outside right...and member i odn't like dark windows...but i go closer to see this spider...and the white round thing happens to be the eggs that it's guarding and the spider was as big as my hand...and it's wasn't a skinny daddy long legs either...it was a thick, huge hairy black ugly thing!!!! it took picture of it...and then here comes a ALBINO lizzard...at least it was really white it was see through...and chases the spider...that thing has some guts...yeah...i hate it...but hey...i'm gonna be optimistic...it was outside the window..now if it was INSIDE...it would be a whole different story..jeje...

you know whats pretty interesting to do? dance in the rain...i really don't like rain...it makes my hair wet...and when my hair is wet i feel cold...but then since i have to live the fact that it rains a lot here...hey might as well be happy and do something good about it, right?! so i dance in the rain...pretty fun...you should try it. jejeje...:)

well, i guess i need to go now...print out the tabs that i do have...and stuff...well...dont' be strangers now...and keep in touch...if you guys want my number here is...

011639194435444

at least that is how you dial it...text me...jejeje...my goodness...i HATE texting...but then that is how they do it here...gosta get used to it...if that number doesn't work...feel free to ask my brother...(right 'rara?! :) i LOVE you!!! :) )

here i go again, sayin that i need to go...but i'm still writing...when will i ever learn!!! jejeje...

take care all...i miss you...and i love you SOOOO much!!!

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Another week is starting.

my favorite days here are fridays...then comes saturdays...and then sundays are a not have...i dont' really like sundays kasi that means i have school the next day! school here is extra long...and i'm serious you people out there, there are NO eye-candy here...okay...well maybe there are 2 but they aren't all that great! jejeje...but i guess i should stop looking for one...i'll only let my self down all the time...jeejjeje....

i'm sad...my family is gone now....good bye auntie and family and lissa...i miss you guys a lot..i'm sorta sad that i didn't get to say bye to one of my other family members...but maybe one day i'll be able to see them again...it's like i've been here forever, and then not forever...i can't make up my mind ...jeje...but yeah...

i miss everyone so much...pres, i miss you and the babies so much...i thought that i would mention that...since i think about you guys all the time...i regret not seeing laylay grow up and watch her "firsts" in her life...and i regret not being there to play with rose...and i miss talking to you! i miss you so much! so if you are reading this...yes i miss you

to everyone else...yes...i miss you all so much..i'm thinking about all my friends back at home all the time...but don't worry about me...im sure that you all are having much funness without me, and i'm having a lot of fun here too...i alreayd have a lot of stories to tell you...a lot...so much funniness we will be laughing for DAYS...and i'm f'realz!

well...this was juss a blah-blah blog thingy...but i juss wanted to let you all know I LOVE YOU!

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