Pay Attention Girls!

Ate Kate, thank you for this post...i liked it so much, i wanna put it here so i can have it for a long time. It makes me think, and wonder...A LOT of things.

Yeah, pretty much...pay attention, girls.

Nice guys.... good read

"This is a tribute to the nice guys. The nice guys that finish last, that never become more than friends, that endure hours of whining and bitching about what assholes guys are, while disproving the very point. This is dedicated to those guys who always provide a shoulder to lean on but restrain themselves to tentative hugs, those guys who hold open doors and give reassuring pats on the back and sit patiently outside the changing room at department stores.

This is in honor of the guys that obligingly reiterate how cute/beautiful/smart/funny/sexy their female friends are at the appropriate moment, because they know most girls need that litany of support. This is in honor of the guys with open minds, with laid-back attitudes, with honest concern. This is in honor of the guys who respect a girl’s every facet, from her privacy to her theology to her clothing style.

This is for the guys who escort their drunk, bewildered female friends back from parties and never take advantage once they’re at her door, for the guys who accompany girls to bars as buffers against the rest of the creepy male population, for the guys who know a girl is fishing for compliments but give them out anyway, for the guys who always play by the rules in a game where the rules favor cheaters, for the guys who are accredited as boyfriend material but somehow don’t end up being boyfriends, for all the nice guys who are overlooked, underestimated, and unappreciated, for all the nice guys who are manipulated, misled, and unjustly abandoned, this is for you.

This is for that time she left 40 urgent messages on your cell phone, and when you called her back, she spent three hours painstakingly dissecting two sentences her boyfriend said to her over dinner. And even though you thought her boyfriend was a chump and a jerk, you assured her that it was all ok and she shouldn’t worry about it.

This is for that time she interrupted the best killing spree you’d ever orchestrated in GTA3 to rant about a rumor that romantically linked her and the guy she thinks is the most repulsive person in the world. And even though you thought it was immature and you had nothing against the guy, you paused the game for two hours and helped her concoct a counter-rumor to spread around the floor.

This is also for that time she didn’t have a date, so after numerous vows that there was nothing “serious” between the two of you, she dragged you to a party where you knew nobody, the beer was awful, and she flirted shamelessly with you, justifying each fit of reckless teasing by announcing to everyone: “oh, but we’re just friends!” And even though you were invited purely as a symbolic warm body for her ego, you went anyways. Because you’re nice like that.

The nice guys don’t often get credit where credit is due. And perhaps more disturbing, the nice guys don’t seem to get laid as often as they should. And I wish I could logically explain this trend, but I can’t. From what I have observed on campus and what I have learned from talking to friends at other schools and in the workplace, the only conclusion I can form is that many girls are just illogical, manipulative bitches. Many of them claim they just want to date a nice guy, but when presented with such a specimen, they say irrational, confusing things such as “oh, he’s too nice to date” or “he would be a good boyfriend but he’s not for me” or “he already puts up with so much from me, I couldn’t possibly ask him out!” or the most frustrating of all: “no, it would ruin our friendship.”

Yet, they continue to lament the lack of datable men in the world, and they expect their too-nice-to-date male friends to sympathize and apologize for the men that are jerks. Sorry, guys, girls like that are beyond my ability to fathom. I can’t figure out why the connection breaks down between what they say (I want a nice guy!) and what they do (I’m going to sleep with this complete ass now!).

But one thing I can do, is say that the nice-guy-finishes-last phenomenon doesn’t last forever. There are definitely many girls who grow out of that train of thought and realize they should be dating the nice guys, not taking them for granted. The tricky part is finding those girls, and even trickier, finding the ones that are single.

So, until those girls are found, I propose a toast to all the nice guys. You know who you are, and I know you’re sick of hearing yourself described as ubiquitously nice. But the truth of the matter is, the world needs your patience in the department store, your holding open of doors, your party escorting services, your propensity to be a sucker for a pretty smile. For all the crazy, insane, absurd things you tolerate, for all the situations where you are the faceless, nameless hero, my accolades, my acknowledgement, and my gratitude go out to you. You do have credibility in this society, and your well deserved vindication is coming."

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Hello. How are you? What do I want to talk about right now? I know that I always have to have something to talk about. But right now, SO many things is going through my head, that as soon as I type one word another thought comes to mind!

I'm so alone right now. Where is Milo?! Oh, there he is...i think that it's adorably cute how Milo comes into the room every so often to check to see if i'm "okay" i guess. Well, he goes to sleep in "my" room, and then if i'm not in the same room as him, he comes around every so often, either to see if i'm still where i am, or if i'm okay...or iono...i think that it's cute whatever it is. And it's always for only like 30 seconds. So he's gone now since i can't type all this in 30 seconds. That would be so cool if i could. :)

I don't have school tommarow. I had school today, and i didn't know what was going on with me?! It was like my mind was on vacation or something! Whatever the teacher was talking about...i was trying to force myself to pay attention...but it wasn't working! I would like repeat every word he said in my head...but still it wasn't working. And it wasn't only me...it was my whole class! Yesterday, i wrote so many letters. I love to write letters. And i love getting them...it shows that people out there still love little ol' me. :)

Wow...sorry, this is one boring blog...i think i'm juss gonna stop for now, and go watch something. If i decide to write something more interesting...i'm write...but as for now...i'll juss let you go before you die of boredom! ;) (OOOHHH, so cute...my first face that i used on this thing...juss wanted to check it out. :) i know i'm wierd...look, i'm still useing the keyboard faces! :) yeah...i like that one up there...:) )

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She's beautiful!

For the first time yesterday, i got to see and hold my beautiful baby neice. She is so breathtaking, and i could spend forever juss stareing at her. Yeah, i have to admit that i felt like a little child with so much impatientness...i wanted her to be awake already...! But juss watching her sleep for a long time was something so beautiful to watch. Babies dream, i know it, i could see it in her face. She was only 4 days old, but you could see her little eye lids fluttering in dream. Her face would move, she would smile, her TINY arms would "fly" and her hands would grab anything that was near it...her legs would pump and her feet would "open" wide. How do you say it?! Like her feet would stretch open. Her feet were so tiny, her hands even smaller...her fingers would hold my finger, and you could feel her strength in them. it was wow. she has 3 "cowlicks" one in the front, dead center, and two in the back...she could have a little mohawk going there! :) her cheeks were sooo soft i couldn't stop kissing her...she has so much hair. She is so light, she is so small. She is such a wonder. I wanted to hold her forever. When the EXTREME few times she was awake...her eyes would slowly look around, it was like you know that she could see, but then she couldn't. her eyes would open sooo big, dang...she is so beautiful! I didn't want her to go back to sleep. but she would go back to sleep as soon as she woke up, no matter what i did. Oh my goodness, when she yawns...it's like so cute...when she sneezes...why is that...when babies sneezes it's cute...but if i sneeze...it's far from cute...maybe she's new...and that's why. Everything she does is a wonder. :) She's gonna be a gorgeous beautiful pretiful lady when she grows up...juss like her Manang Rosemarie and her mommy Presmarie. I know it.

It was also Rosemarie's birthday party yesterday. And yes, i did get to play with them kids. They are always a blessing. So cute, so wow....:) VERY full of energy. My baby girl got so much...she didn't know what to do with all of them. You shoulda seen her. The second she got home, i was with Baby Leelo, carrying her all over the place, and Baby Girl was ripping open box after box of her toys...it was so cute. She was so excited with all her toys and i'm happy for her. I got a picture of her holding her baby sister for the first time. You shoulda been there to see her face...as careful as she could be, and juss looking at her sister. Her ading Leelo. :) So cute.

Another coolness thing happened...yep...my sister came home. Even though i was only for a few hours...it was great to see her again, and talk about things only sister's can talk about and understand about in only a way that a sister could. Neal brough her up. Wow...she has gotten a keeper there. He's soo sweet, and it's great to see them together. It was fun to watch them, as Ate Faith was carrying baby Leelo, and Neal was there looking at her....wonder what was going through their mind...oh i know...what a cute baby Leelo was! :) yep that's what it was. :) Neal is such a good guy for her. And i'm happy that they worked out their differences between each other. and i HOPE that he is a keeper. I konw that he is...he juss gotta prove it now. :)

I got an e-mail from my Ate in the philippines. It was news about my gramma who i love with all my heart, and i miss with everything in my body. I hate how the last thing that i remember her was her tears, her holding me so hard, BEGGING me to never forget her, to give regards to my mom (they don't get a long that great) and to come back. I feel like crying right now, damn, i'm suck an emotional person. My gramma was and is everything to me. We are so close. I know that with her i can tell her EVERYTHING and ANYTHING and she will never critizie me, she will never put me down, she will never get mad. She grew up in a way different generation, in a way different country and in a way different culture...but yet, she loves me the way i am. I dont' have to change for her. I can be gone from home for days, or even juss hours or minutes...but i knew that i could come home, and she was there...ready to listen to whatever it was. Even the converstation with my neighbors as i went out to get the mail. I remember EVERY SINGLE time i would leave the house....she would always say, "Ingat, balasang, kasi mahal kita." which for all you english speakers out there means, "Take care, my loveing/close daughter, because i love you." she would always wake up to say that. ALWAYS. even if i tried to sneak out of the house, so that i didn't have to wake her up...she would always know. and wake up, to hug me. And you know what there was always tears in her eyes. You know i would always have that lump in my throat when i left the house. Especially when i would be gone for a while, because she would always tell me to take care and that she loved me, and she always made me promise to come back. She knew my life inside and out, how i felt in the inside, how i felt so trapped, i wanted to get away...how i wanted to go far away and not come back until i came back as someone who could make my parents proud. So she always begged me to come back. You know what she did. When i went to the philippines, she knew that i would be homesick for the first couple of weeks...so she went there before me, with out telling me. When i left my school here, i went straight to the airport...and my parents wouldn't let me say bye to her. I didnt' know she left...and i was so mad, they said i didn't have time, i was already 1 hour late and yada yada...i'd see her again...and when i got to the philippines, i was so sad, and i missed her so much. She was the one who picked me up at the airport. And i was soo shocked. She did that for me. When it was time for her to come back to America...i was devestated...but she said that she would be back. and she did came back...but she came back to the philippines to stay. I cried when i left the philippines. I cried kasi i would miss my friends and family that i would leave behind there...but the last person i looked at as i went into the restricted area in the airport was at my gramma's face. I cried the whole way home. I was by myself...and i cried. I didn't know when the next time i would see her again...and i still don't.

"one day farther from the last time you last saw your loved one, is one day closer to when you see them again." 

i miss her so much. SO much.

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Hi and hello!

well...here i am in my room...about to go to my little sister's house in a while...but i'm here listening to the cd that my bestest buddy made for me...and i really like these songs!!

i love Saturday's. I remember when i was younger i didn't really fully appreacitate the real meaning of Saturday. I remember not really wanting to go to church at an unholy hour, waking up at even a more unholy hour...trying to hurry to get ready for church...trying to make myself presentable...while i was not even fully awake. Not even after a shower could i wake up...now...i like waking up on Saturday knowing that God gave me this day to relax. Sometimes i still feel like not waking up, i mean, why do we have to wake up so early when this day is suppose to be a day of REST! jajaja....i don't think that i'll ever get that.

last night i was talking again to my bestest buddy...and i asked the question why aren't we allowed to get married in heaven. I mean like where in the bible does it say that we coudln't have a boyfriend or girlfriend or a spouse or get married in heaven. I don't understand that. we both dissagreed on why...but then today in church...the pastor said that the greatest commandment in the bible was "love the Lord your God with all you heart, mind, soul and strength." well...when you think about, i guess...that is how you are suppose to love you spouse, right? so when we are in heaven...maybe we won't get married, and we wouldn't WANT to get married because we are in love with God that much, you know. yeah...i dunno, i was juss thinking that.

OoOoO...i'm listening to the CD now to another cd my bestest buddy made for me...laura pasini...hm...i think the last name is wrong...but something like that...and i LOVE this first song! "I Need Love" Here are SOME of the lyrics...well, if they are sorta wrong, i'm juss typing them as i hear them...and i'm not THAT fast of a typer okay?! :)

"I'd cross the desert to be where you are, oh the things i do to be close to you. A million miles wouldn't seem that far, i'd go anywhere juss to win your heart. But wherever this leads, there's something i need. I need love, the kind that makes yo uwanna live, the kinds that makes you wanna breath....(whoa...too fast now!) And when i see you i juss lose my mind, your the everything i thought i'd never find. must be an angel watching over me, with a little luck we're gonna make you mine. cause i wanna believe...i know we could be...and i'll catch you when you'll fall, be the greatest love of all, i promise to be, if you give me all i need, i need!!! I need love, the kind that makes you wanna live, the kind that makes you wanna breath...."

jajaj..oh okay..i can't type all of it, and yeah...but yeah, if you know that song, it's one of the cutest song. Well, at least i think.

well, tommarow is my baby neices birthday. hm...maybe i should say it in a different way...but it's NOT her birthday..but her birthday PARTY! her real birthday is on the 5th of September. I love this girl so much! maybe i shoudln't call her baby anymore...she is a big girl now, she is turning 6 years old. But she will always be my little baby girl. :) you know how that goes. :) i know that i'm gonna have so much fun. I always have fun with little kids...they are sooo unpredictable...and so fun...full of surprises...and i juss love them...

well...my brother juss came into my room, and we have to go now to my lil sis's house na...it's 10:54pm, and so yeah...but i'll be here back in my house tommarow! but yeah, for some reason, i don't think that you really care. :) jajaja...but yeah...goodnight and sweetdreams for now! :)

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Here I am again...

Here I am again, in my little sister's house, but i'm not only with Milo this time. My brother is on the phone with his friend ;). I really wish that i could be in Malaysa right now. But it's okay...one day i'll be there...Jajajaja....Milo is sleeping under my chair on my feet...it's a good thing too, he is keeping my feet warm. But then i juss moved my feet and he hella jumped...aww..i feel bad for laughing. :)

Well, as i was watching I, Robot (with the hottest guy on earth (Will Smith))...my sister called me! It was only for like 5 minutes...but she was calling to tell me that she is on the way to Holister now with her boyfriend. But *SURPRISE* her boyfriend said that he was gonna drive her down here for one day. Oohh...i love her boyfriend, he's such a great guy!...and i can't wait to see my sister. I told her to come here on Sunday so that she can be here for our neice's birthday party...but IONO...it might be tommarow. She doesn't want my parents to know, and she doesn't want my brother to know...so she juss told me. We haven't seen her for a while, and so it will be good to see her again.

I didn't have classes today. I sorta like my schedule. I have classes only on monday, tuesday and thrusday. but then it's all so late...night classes, the other classes were already filled. but that's okay. At least i can wake up late, diba?! :) Oh and for all those who don't know...i go to Solano Community College. But only for this year...next year...i'm off to Florida or Thailand...hopefully Thailand. But yeah. :)

I was talking to my bestest buddy last night and we were talking about that hurican...that mean one that is killing and making so many people homeless! I wanna go there. I wanna go there to help those who need help. I know that they need help! So anyone...if you know of some group that is going out there to help...PLEASE TELL ME! i would really like to go there and volenteer my time there for a while. I know that they need all the help they can get...and our prayers.

I really can't wait til we get to go to heaven. No more pain or suffering...everyone will be happy and we will be having the time of our lives...but since that time is not here yet...i wanna help those who are in pain and who are suffering...i wanna help them! So i hope that it is in God's plan that i can go to those places...yep...that's what i'm thinking right now.

Well, thas all for now!

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Hm....

well, i know that i already wrote a blog today...but then, hey...you don't have a limit as to how many blogs you can write, right?! well, right now i'm here in my lil sister house, all alone...no, i take that back...i'm not alone <thank you sooo much Jesus for that!!!!> i'm here with Milo. I love dogs...and they are good company. right now he is sitting on my lap...it looks like he is sleeping, but i don't know how he could be sleeping with all the noise of this typing does! it's so loud! jajajaja...oh well...i'm glad for the company he brings me.

it was so funny, i told my brother to come in the house with me, at least so that he can turn on all the lights, but he was like i'm a big girl now, i can do it myself...and it didn't look that dark, and so i did...i went up to the door, turn off the alarm, and then opened the door, when all of a sudden ALL THE LIGHTS TURNED OFF! and i was like, "oh hell naw!! i can't do this!" and so i turn back, and i see that the only light on is the car lights...and so i'm motioning for my brother to "come here!" but he doesn', and then all the lights turn back on, and then i'm okay...so yeah. i know that those of you who don't know me must think i'm weird...but yeah...it's all good. you either know me, or you don't...and if you do know me, you can either love me or not, there's nothing that i can do about that. :)

well my lil sister and rara are gone. they are prolly half way to malaysa right now, for which i am sooo envious of. but thats okay, i know that when they come back...there'll be so much stories...and i won't be the only one who's "tan." jajajajaja...inside jowk i guess...but if you really wanna know...you can figure it out on your own. i'm suppose to be house sitting again with my brother, but my brother doesn't want to sleep over...but that's okay, i have Milo here with me. but i sure do miss Sammy and my baby Baili...but it's okay. :)

Class today was okay...it was really interesting, but it still was a lecture...well it was more like 1 1/2 discussion and then a 10 minute break and then another 1hour and 20 minute disscusion, then finally HOME SWEET HOME! but i'm not home, i'm here. :) but yeah. that was too much discusion over the same thing practically! but it was really eye-opening. i learned new things. and it was good. but my classmate, Katie...saw that i was about to go insain and all that good stuff...so she passed me over some gum...and i took some...and it had a weird taste to it...so i asked her what kind was it, and it was called "jolt" it was a type of gum with caffiene in it! oh joy! i want some more! :) so that was cool. i think i'm the second youngest in that class...the other person, who is THE ONLY GUY IN THAT CLASS, is still in highschool. the rest are already older than me. :) but then again, they thought that i was still in highschool...i guess you can't tell this is my 3rd year in college...but i guess...when i get older, it's gonna be good. as for now, i wish people would TREAT ME MY AGE...:) it's all good though. i'll be in a different state next year...or even country! :)

i was kinda dissappointed..i was gonna go see leelo, pres, rose and julius today...after my class...but then i found out my mom is gonna be going to work, and she needed the car, and so we couldnt' use the car...i really can't wait until we get that new car my mom said that she was gonna get me and my brother! :) but most definitly tommarow...i have NO CLASSES. so that is good. :)

well...i think that i'll go and do some studying for now...maybe watch a movie...or call a friend...i HATE being alone...but i'm not...i'm with Milo...but i still HATE being a lone...as long as all the lights are on...it's a good thing i'm comfortable in this house...one of my many "2nd" homes. i think i'm more comfortable HERE than in my house since i've only lived in my house for 4 months...yeah, it takes me FOREVER to get used to a house or place that i can be comfortable in it and to actually sleep comfortably. yep, that's juss me.

hm...wonder if i'll ever grow out of that. i know that something happened really bad to me when i was younger...not bad nessisarry (i know i can't spell!)...more like tramatizing...but that has to do with the reason why i'm scared of whats in the dark and the dark...but not why i hate being a lone...but i think i can tolerate being a lone, rather that the dark more easier...now if i was alone in the dark...i seriously don't know what i'll do, i hope that my brain shuts down and i go unconscience...that will be cool...but i know that that might not happen...or i could hyperventilate...(something i notice that happens when i'm in the dark) and die. but yeah...well yeah...

i will go now...i need to see what Milo is up too, he juss jumped offa lap. :)

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Another summary of who cares?!

well, i'm extremely excited that my baby niece is finally here in the world. Her name is Layanna <although my personal nickname for her is Leelo>, she was born yesterday, August 31, 2005 at around 4:30pm. She is 19 inches and 7 pounds and uhm..iono how many oz. I get to see her today, and i'm so excited about that...but after my class which ends at 9:15pm today....OOOOHHHH...i hope that i get out early today! It is always so sad when someone has to leave this world of the living...not only does it hurt your heart in a way that noting can hurt it, but it kills apart of you. That is why babies come into the world. So that part of you that died, will live again...not in the same way but in a different way through the life of the new child...in this case Leelo. :) So my many congratulations too the new mommy and daddy....and Baby girl <rosemarie> i hope that you like your early birthday present! :)

well yesterday i got to hang out with my good friend Tamara, since we both didnt have school yesterday. we watched hella movies...wow...couldn't sit THAT long...but i did get my nails done. Yep...miss rara can do my nails like no one else can. You know when i think about it...not many people have done my nails...everytime i ask...they always say that i could do my own nails. yeah, i know i like to paint my own nails, make them look how i want them to look, make my own designs and all that fun stuff...but sometimes i wish that someone else would do my nails. I'm always doing other people's nails with my designs and all that good stuff...sometimes i would like the favor returned to me. :) so thanx SO much Rara for doing my nails. Their beautiful :) And i LOVE those hand creams that you used on my hands...it made my hands feel SOOO soft! :)

hm...the last person i talked to on the phone was my little sister, Melissa and Miss Rara  herself. They are the most luckiest people alive at this moment...as i am typing this, they are on their way to Malaysa. I'm so jeaslous...i wanna go travel again! Malaysa seems like a great place to go...nice and hot, with sun shining down on you...and i like that part of the earth :) It was funny...lissa called from the airplane...it's a wonder she didn't get caught! :) i remember going to Thailand with JynJyn and we were useing our phone's like crazy! we got caught...but then since we are soo innocent looking..."we didn't know that we weren't suppose too!" jajajajaja...good times...and i miss it. I really wish that i could have gone to malaysa though.

my classes are going...they are really interesting! Last night i spent the night my lil sis's house to keep her company for the last time she was home. Her mom and her mom's fiancee is already in malaysa getting ready for the wedding, so she has been home alone...and i came over...but i wasn't that much of good company...for one thing she was still packing...and didn't need my help and for another thing i was studying. wow...me studying...that is a new thing...jajajaja...i use to take my good grades for granted...didn't have to try...now i WANT to try and my books are really interesting...but i still have that trouble sitting still. but these books really caught my attention.

when i was half finished with my chapter...i went out of "my" room to see what was up with Lissa...she was still packing, doing last minute laundry (hold on! phone ringing!), and watching on of my favorites...HITCH! yeah...so i watched half of Hitch...i love that movie...but i dont' get it, why did HITCH have to apologize to that girl! HE didn't do anything wrong..it was her all along...she was the one that messed up his life and the life of albert and allegra! but i guess, it's a movie, and it makes me smile.

well, earlier on this week, i was going through my stuff...if you know me, you know that i keep EVERYTHING! every letter, every memobillia...(wow...BIG WORD), practically EVERYTHING...i went through letters. i'm a letter writer...it's more personal than e-mail and you get to keep the letters that they write back...and it's in their handwriting, not some printed out e-mail...although i got a few of those as well :) i guess i'm sorta organized...i have my letters from friends..."love letters" and that is organized in itself....and letters that meant SO much to me that i couldn't throw them out...and i guess i meant letters like notes and pictures and drawings and stuff like that. i was reading them and wow...it hit me how much of my friends that i don't talk to anymore and we were once close. i mean we are still friends, but we use to be so much closer.

i guess friends do come and go in your life. i mean...they come and they leave a part of themselves and you give a part of yourself and then we move on. i guess we will always be friends...but in a different sense. there were some letters that i looked at and said that i know that i could go to that same person after not talking to them for years, and still trust them, the way that i did before. it might take a long time explaining about things...but it would be like NOT before but now in before. jajaja...did that even make any sense?! no...i guess i'm not making any sense right now.

well, we're gonna be moving back to the v again. but i'm starting to like it here in fairfield. it's different...and there are different people, but that's how it is everywhere...right?! i haven't even lived here for a full year, and even then, I haven't even been home for that long...around only four months...but i think that i'm liking it here. i either wanna stay here...or move FAR away...really far away. perferably out of CA. i know that my heart will always be in CA...but i've been here all my life, and i liked living in the philippines..it was a different environment, a whole new different place, i met different kinds of people, and it was fun. i living in different countries. its fun. :)

i hope that my sister will be able to drive up soon. i got to talk to her...and it was felt good talking to her. it's amazing how close we are. before we would have gladly taken each other's life with no guilt or conscience...but we have grown past that...and i love my sister so much! we shared so much in our 30 minutes converstation...and i miss her a lot. i'm really glad that she's happy with her life right now. she's a GREAT person, and i love her to death!

well....i can't wait to see my AMBA friends again...im so looking forward to that...and with that in mind...laterz for now!

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